HAPPYHEARTAZA

2011-03-19T14:15:00.004+08:00

You're here with me,
and i feel safe,comfort.
I am stronger when you're around.
"I want you here.."
and you always there

waiting for me
holding my hand, catch me
so i wont fall
though i never told you
in the end, hope you will know,
with you I'm fearless

knowing
I believe in you.

Only you.

happyheartaza

how to study maths

2011-03-19T13:02:00.003+08:00

Why aren't you getting better grades in mathematics? Do you feel that you have put in all the time on it that can be expected of you and that you are still not getting results? Or are you just lazy? If you are lazy, this material is not intended for you. But if you have been trying and your grades still don't show your ability, or if you have been getting good grades but still feel that the mathematics does not mean very much to you, it is very likely that you do not know how to study effectively. This material aims to help you to study mathematics effectively.

Some of you, may feel that you have successful study methods of your own different from the ones described here. In that case, you need not feel you must change your methods, although you might profit from comparing your methods with these.

On the other hand, some of you may feel that the suggestions on the following pages are over-ambitious - that they would require more time and effort than you are prepared to give. You will probably be right. We cannot expect to do everything to perfection, but we can do the best we are able. Out of the suggestions offered, you can pick the ones that may help you most, and as you find your work improving, you may be able to try further suggestions. So scoff if you wish at these ambitious suggestions, but then give some of them a try, a fair try, and watch the results.

HOMEWORK!!!!

There is a common misconception that homework is primarily something to eventually hand in to the teacher. Actually, the homework is first and foremost a means of learning fundamental ideas and processes in mathematics, and of developing habits of neatness and accuracy. What is passed in to the teacher is only a by-product of that learning process. The following four-step routine is a suggestion for making your homestudy effective:

1. Get oriented. Take a few minutes to think back, look over your notes, and look over the book to see clearly what ideas you have been working on.

2. Line up the ideas. Think about the ideas, laws, and methods in the day's assignment or lesson. Don't forget to familiarize yourself with any new words in your mathematics vocabulary. Try to remind yourself of any warnings about errors to avoid that the teacher might have mentioned. Go through any examples given to be sure you really understand the concepts being illustrated.

3. Do the assignment. Think about the ideas the exercises are illustrating. You should be increasing your understanding as well as getting the answers. The following pointers will help you do a better job:

a. Get the assignment accurately off the blackboard. Have a definite place in your notebook where you write down the assignment or lesson. If you do not understand the assignment, don't hesitate to ask. Your teacher wont eat you!

b. Follow the directions.

c. Work neatly and accurately.

d. Show your complete work, not just the answer. This will help you and your teacher when you are checking through for errors.

e. Always check back to be sure you have done all simple arithmetic correctly.

f. Do the work promptly before you have forgotten all the instructions.

g. If you get stuck, don't just give up! Look back at the book and your notes for ideas related to the problem. If your work on a problem seems to be completely confused, it sometimes helps to discard your paper entirely and start afresh. If you still can't clear your thinking, ask the teacher about the problems as soon as possible.

4. Help someone else, if you can. There is no better way to learn a topic than by trying to teach it! Also, it is often helpful to call upon a classmate when you do not understand a problem. Often, they are able to explain the concept to you as well (if not better than) the teacher.

HOW TO MAKE YOUR ERRORS HELP YOU LEARN

What do you do when an answer is wrong in your homework, or on a test? Do you throw it away and forget it-and then make the same mistake the next time? If you are wise, you will make those errors teach you something. Here's what you can do:

1. Analyze the error to see if you can find what you did wrong.

2. If it is a careless error and you really knew how to do the work correctly, make a note of it, and if you find that you keep making careless errors frequently, start working more carefully.

3. If you can't find where your error is, ask the teacher or a classmate to help you.

4. Keep a page in your notebook entitled, "Warning: Errors to Avoid." On the same page write a description of the corrected way to do that kind of exercise, being sure to emphasize the important idea behind it.

CLASSWORK: HOW TO MAKE THE MOST OF YOUR TIME IN CLASS

1. Get ready. In the minute of two before the class gets started, think over what you have been working on recently.

2. Have all necessary equipment: book, pencils or pens, notebook, homework assignment.

3. Take down the assignment promptly and accurately.

4. Concentrate. This takes an effort if you are the kind whose mind tends to wander.

5. Ask questions when you do not understand.

6. Listen to the questions and answers of others in the class. When another pupil is answering a question, think how you would answer the question.

7. Take part in the class discussion.

8. Do not write at the wrong time. When you are taking notes, be sure you do not miss anything that is said while you are doing so. When taking notes, there are two conflicting things you must try to do. One is to make your notes complete and accurate enough to be valuable to you later. The other is to make your notes brief enough so that you can continue to listen to what is being said in class.

HOW TO USE THE TEXTBOOK

1. Use the index and glossary at the back of the book, especially when you have forgotten the meaning of a word.

2. When your book gives an example to illustrate an idea, analyze the example carefully for the ideas behind it instead of just trying to make your exercises look like the example.

3. If you can't do an excercise, reread the explanatory material in the book and/or go over your class notes.

4. Make the most of the study helps at the end of each chapter.

HOW TO REVIEW FOR TESTS

1. Start reviewing far enough in advance so you have time to do a careful unhurried job, and still are able to go to bed early the night before the exam.

2. Be sure to go through your notes and the examples that are there. If they don't make sense to you, you haven't taken enough notes!

3. If there are some formulas for which you are responsible, make a list of them and then practice saying them, or writing them.

4. Use the review materials at the end of each chapter. If you are having trouble on a problem, go back to that section in the book and rework some problems there.

5. If you were the teacher, what questions would you ask on the test? Prepare yourself for those questions.

6. Since it is said that "practice makes perfect", one of the better ways of studying for a test is to do some problems that were previously assigned to you. go over your homework to be sure you understand the procedure you used in each section.

7. Get a good night's rest the night before the exam!

8. DON'T WORRY!

HOW TO TAKE TESTS

1. When you take a test, have the right attitude - take pride in doing the best job you can. Don't try to "get by" with doing as little as possible. Have confidence in your own ability.

2. Be serious and concerned enough about the test to do your best, but don't worry to the point of anxiety. Fear alone can make a person do poorly on a test, regardless of his ability and knowledge.

3. Have all necessary equipment.

4. FOLLOW DIRECTIONS. Read carefully and listen carefully for any special instructions, such as where answers are to be written, any changes or corrections, etc.

5. Look over the whole test quickly at the start and, unless you are required to do the questions in the order given, do the ones you are sure of first.

6. If you are unable to answer a question, leave it and go on to another, coming back to the hard one later. Often, with a fresh start, you will suddenly see much better what to do.

7. Be careful to show clearly what you are doing. Remember that the teacher is not a mind-reader, and your grade may depend on whether or not the teacher can see from your work that you understand what you are doing.

8. Work neatly. It makes a good impression on the teacher!

9. Check back as you go along for accuracy. Careless errors can make a great deal of difference in your score.

10. With the right attitude and careful preparation for a test you probably will do well on the exam.

11. Remember: The one or two hours of the test are but brief moments in your life span so DON'T PANIC!

* Credit to Department of Mathematics, Ohio State University.

happyheartaza

2011-01-16T00:17:00.005+08:00

********

Baby you're my firework

Come on let your colors burst

You don't have to feel like a waste of space

You're original, cannot be replaced

If you only knew what the future holds

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

-FIREWORKS-

*************

happyheartaza

2011-01-10T20:20:00.002+08:00

ONLY HAVE

L.O.V.E

F.A.I.T.H

AND

H.O.P.E

FOR

Y.O.U

happyheartaza

my masterpiece!

2010-12-24T00:07:00.007+08:00

It's holiday!

ya! siapa tak nak cuti kan? so habis saja prepare plan for 2011-time table, teachers-subjects-classes-homerooms-bla bla bla- ...so..melepak...as usual..first thing in my mind..beaches and jungles. this is what i called 'back to nature'. well , i m naturalist!!! huahuahua...

but this time, ada bezanya..Beza? I decided to find out my 'hidden talent' or rather one of my multiple intelligences ,that is 'spatial-visual'-drawing, interpretation and creation of visual images! Instead of taking photo with my digital camera, i used art block , crayon and BUNCHO!! I DONT CARE IF PPL GONNA SAY " macam lukisan budak sekolah rendah je!.." Its ok coz my dad said,

" hmm..kalau hantar masuk pertandingan melukis menang ni..kategori sekolah rendah!".

Dang!!!...I know i cant draw..but as dad said to me " kalau dah selalu lukis nanti cantik lah ..boleh jual..yang pentingnya buat je apa Adik yang suka".

SERIOUSLY, I dont know how to draw!!!

so, yeah, all my 'MASTERPIECES' - adalah menggambarkan tempat-tempat yang dikunjungi...hutan gunung angsi, kuala pilah. pulau pangkor dan kampung kawan I , kg. senaling.

ni la..kampung kawan... ada sawah.. ada nampak macam sawah ke? Ini guna crayon..

Ini masa jungle trekking gunung angsi. beautiful plants!

Pulau Pangkor in the morning...

This is ....err..I dont know...

Ini pun...imagination.

my workplace!

missing you..'Hershey's'!!!

know what? I really ..REALLY ...impressed with my drawings! perasan betul!

but really...seriously...I never knew..i can draw..coz I TRY!!!

actually...

what i m gonna tell you, whoever la...,

-find and build up your hidden talent..search within yourself. Never say 'No', or ' i cant do it'

or 'it's IMPOSIBLE'

coz you can change that to

' I M POSSIBLE'!!

IF I TRY!!

&&&*****&&&****

happyheartaza

2010-12-09T23:38:00.009+08:00

If you have a little FAITH in me, that's enough.

If it's LOVE for me , thank you.

If there is trust, there is HOPE.

&*&*&*&*&*&*&*&*&*&

so what's wrong of being single?

i choose to remain single and i m happy with my life

wait...i m single
but

NOT AVAILABLE!

well, i have family; parents, brothers, sisters and friends who love me

who are always there for me

i never feel alone.

yes.sometime when i went to the mall, and bumped into some people and they like
" seorang saja? mana dia. bla.bla"

so what? sometimes i need to be alone especially to bookstore.
I can spend hours in Kino or Times or MPH to find books.
so i dont want my friends to wait for me or following me and bla.bla.bla...that make me go...

ARGHHHH!!!

what is the most irritating for single ladies?

mulut orang tak boleh ditutup! fitnah merata-rata.

haiz...

pakai 'cantik' sikit, kata nak cari lelaki

bercakap dengan makhluk yang dipanggil 'LELAKI', kata nak buat suami ,

PUH-LEASE!!
hah..mulalah ..ada mulut gatal nak mengumpat

alamak, I cakap dengan budak sekolah pun kata " haaa..flirting !!!"

H.E.L.L.o!!!!

so..dulu I marah but now ..

I assume that this kind of people have no brain.

ok. SMALL MIND!

but i m lucky to have someone ( did I mention i m single but not available ?)

who really understand me. I know him for years. someone i can turn to. rely on.
the ONLY reason why I cannot get SO CLOSE ( if you can understand what i meant ) to him
is ....ARE...

he already has someone else!
no.no. I aint a 'snatcher'! NO.

plus...he's not muslim..
( Andrew is history but i m trapped in the same situation! )

It's ok. I'm happy with it. just a platonic friend.

I prefer that way but i dont know until when...its already four years!

On and Off.... Off and On.........Off? ...On.

*&*&*&*&*&*&*&*&*

yes. i believe in myself. As a muslim ( i consider myself as a GOOD muslim! )
I cant say that I dont believe in marriage coz thats against
the Islamic teaching.

but based on the report recently, ( 6th Dec )

there are more than 27,000 couples divorced this year !!!
THOUSANDS!!!

wait, muslims only! means the figure DEFINITELY bigger ,

MORE,

if include the non-muslim couples!
Scary right?

so for that, I DONT believe in myself, marriage, i meant.
I might be in that statistic!
why?
i'm stubborn.ego.hard-headed.heartless.cold-blooded.
( well. I salute my friends, guy friends, who can tahan with my attitude!)

grandma: kenapa tak nak kahwin? ada orang ajak kawin, lari ..!!

me: boleh , tapi lepas dua minggu, see my face in newspaper..tajuk utama
" isteri belasah suami" !!!

.................... hahaha.................

I like this "Bitchology". Different from that kind of B**ch.
(that bad , cruel, nasty meaning !! STOP IT , PLEASE!)

sick. yes.i think i m already sick with some people.
sick because they are PRETENDERS.
they nice to me but
at the same time...

use me ...KIASUS

talking behind my back...BACKSTABBERS

not telling the truth...LIARS

TWO FACES!

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come to me with your heart opened.
i dont ask for more
just honesty.

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happyheartaza

2010-12-04T12:54:00.002+08:00

( this poem taken from The Star, 3rd Dec 2010 )
Why English is so hard.

We’ll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,
But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,
Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.
If the plural of man is always called men,
Why shouldn’t the plural of pan be called pen?
If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,
And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn’t the plural of booth be called beeth?
Then one may be that, and three would be those,
Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
But though we say mother, we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!
Let’s face it – English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;
neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren’t invented in England.
We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly,
boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
And why is it that writers write but fingers don’t fing, grocers don’t groce and hammers don’t ham?
Doesn’t it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.
If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn’t preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.
In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.
We have noses that run and feet that smell.
We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.
And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out, and in which an alarm goes off by going on.
And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother’s not Mop?
- Anonymous

I was having my breakfast and saw this article. funny , esp the last line, but it's true. for me. because i had ( or still having this) difficulties of learning languageS! Yes, LANGUAGES! I'm suck in both Malay and English Languages. yes. I m Malay ( with Chinese blood-father's side , according to my mom! ), but that doesnt mean I m good in BM. Bahasa Melayu saya tunggang-langgang! saya boleh bercakap BM tapi 'broken BM( as well as broken English)!' -Imagine this, ok, bayangkan, bila kawan-kawan saya , guru-guru BM, membincangkan pasal BM , saya seperti 'hilang' , bukan sebab tak faham tapi , haiz, their standard! and there is a BM teacher , Cikgu Rahim, fuh! superb! hahaha..saya ambil masa untuk 'absorb' apa yang dia cakap! kadang-kadang bila masa invigilation peperiksaan BM, saya curi-curi baca karangan pelajar saya . God! I cursed myself, their karangan much, MUCH BETTER than mine. they use bombastic ( for me ) words, some which I dont even know the meaning , and worst, words that I thought dont EXIST AT ALL! lagi satu , peribahasa or simpulan bahasa, sure I kantoi!!!So , as usual, back to my staffroom, cari guru BM , Anelyza or Salina, like ,
" Salina, ada ke perkataan " TUNTAS". apa maksud? " . and, mereka , akan terangkan maksud dengan panjang lebar. Oh! Need I tell you, I failed, yes, FAILED my BM, when I was in form 4! ? sebab?
" karangan awak sudah keluar tajuk. dan tatabahasa awak..teruk! lagi satu, bahasa awak terlalu ringkas.Awak faham ke apa saya kata?" , Itulah yang cikgu BM saya kata, Cikgu Saadiah. Sarcastic! hahaha...tapi malu jugalah sebab kawan-kawan I yang bangsa Cina pun dapat markah yang lebih baik dari I. Chow Lap Yen, Chin Fan and Poh Kin... I salute you!! haha.
but one of my few malay friends , Areen, said " aza melayu yang tak macam melayu..!!!"

So what about English? sama saja. All about tenses, vocabs, gerunds, tapi I tak pernah GAGAL!! NEVER ok!

Wait! since I'm talking about my 'pathetic' languages, i must include my chinese language.
haha.I used to learn and used to speak Cantonese , as i said before, growing up, surrounded by Chinese friends.Yes, I learnt Mandarin too. No. not from my Chinese friends but from my sister who took Mandarin classes. Not good, but , yeah. boleh faham! but Cantonese better than Mandarin.That was years ago. I found my Cantonese skills " more pathetic", "deteriorating" and "dead" after I started working-joint MCKL. NO ONE SPEAKS CANTONESE!!! Now? Hardly understand Cantonese..let alone Mandarin. ( except the BAD words! I still use some to swear and curse people !!!)

So ,
Conclusion? Tuntas? 结论?

As long as people can understand what I'm saying, itu sudah sangat baik bagi saya. mingbai?

Love, Sayang, 爱

happyheartaza

2010-12-04T12:39:00.001+08:00

...A world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,exactly who we are is just enough. there’s a place for us. ♥...

Have faith in me , Dear,

coz I do have faith in you.

I'm sorry.

happyheartaza

2010-12-04T12:22:00.003+08:00

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

luv,
happyheartaza

2010-11-25T21:45:00.008+08:00

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

SEIZE THE DAY

cherish every moment.

be HAPPY.

and,
if you think there's no one there for you

THINK of GOD.

ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU.

Life is God's gift to you.

the way you live it is your gift to God.

happy birthday, happyheart!

happyheartaza

2010-11-21T17:30:00.005+08:00

to all my students, 5L, 5C and 5P ..all form 5 of WMS,

Wishing you all the best in your SPM. No worries.

Beloved 5L.

Look at their happy faces. No matter how harsh I scold them, ( I scold because I CARE! ) or how bad the day was because of other people, at the end of day, they are the ones that bring back the smiles and laughters. Gonna miss them. sob. sob.

love ya!

(Do i have the photo of all F5 so that i can upload here? DONT HAVE? dang!!!)

happyheartaza

2010-11-14T12:54:00.001+08:00

" mom dignosed..confirmed. cancer, liver...stage four...", Liza was crying when she told me about my aunt. Ya Allah, what's happening?

" are you sure? may be got mistake.." , i asked, hoping that what i heard was not true. Cancer? Stage four?

" Dr. Lee told us just now..."

God! why suddenly stage four? not one or two? She's always happy, healthy, like nothing that shows she is suffering . My aunt , my mom's younger sister is a caring and loving aunt. She treats us , nieces and nephews, like her own children.

KL to PJ , to her house, normally take less than 15 minutes but i feel like hours. traffic was clear. still ...like hours.

the moment i saw her, i couldnt believe. pale.weak.

" jangan menangis...insyaAllah tak apa " she said, holding my hand. and my tears dropped.

hard to accept this. but, as Dr Lee said, " Let's give her our best, love and pray"

happyheartaza

2010-11-14T11:56:00.003+08:00

"politic is dirty!" said a friend of mine.
" aza, i thought you like or last time you said you wanna join politics?" she continued.
I just kept quiet. No, was enjoying my subway.
"what happen? "
" its not only dirty but scary! "
" so?..now you're not interested?"
yeah, my friends know that i have ( had?)interest in joining 'politics'.
but now,no coz its really dirty compared to last time. Dirtier, than one can imagine.
I notice that majority those who join politics have their own agenda. opportunist. cronies.backstabing. what else? service for the rakyat? only some i can tell you who are really work for rakyat. but few of this 'some' no more in politics but still , spending their time and even money to help the people. who? who else la...Dr M and Tan Sri LeeLam Thye. I really admire ( err ..LOVE for Dr M, yes I'm DEEPLY in love with him!!!) them. true politicians.true leaders.

the rest? ermmm....idk!

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Trust is like a paper. Once crumpled, it wont be perfect!

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It's easier said than done!

after what happened in the past few months and LATELY, i think its better for me to keep quiet. I thought if i voiced out, things will get better, but NOT, getting worse. so, I better keep it to myself.

I m talking CRAP again!

one more week for holidays...cant wait. already in holiday mood.

happyheartaza

2010-11-06T19:44:00.004+08:00

For months, i've been searching the meaning of 'trust' or i prefered 'faith' in his eyes. why? all because of , i called her ,'ladybug'. why? everything that she said or told me about him like so real. she said he 'hates' me.
He hates me? thats one of the question or 'statement' that stuck im my head for months. in fact until now. but still i put on smile on my face or be nice to him , act like normal everytime we see each other. but he didnt or wouldnt know that i was crying inside. suffering. i did ask him or told him about what ladybug told me. he denied but didnt convince me that he didnt say all that.and action speaks louder than word. one day, we went out together with our friends. So? I shouldnt go. seriously. if i knew , i wont go.i was hurt. badly. by the way he treated me. Ladybug was true. and the scar remain.still there! but , somehow he still nice to me. ladybug kept telling me about him. what he said about me. not a nice thing. again i hurt. it's on and off. i wanted to scream to both of them "what do you want from me?". feel weak.
we talked about this, trying to find the answer. it's unsolved. but one thing for sure . I killed ladybug.my faith in him? trying my best to re-build. I just want him to be more honest. open. comfortable with me as much as i feel comfortable whenever with him. . if cant, tell me . i'll go. i want happiness. It's all up to him.

only God knows how i feel inside.

happyheartaza

2010-10-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

what a rainy ending for a perfect day...

if i care for someone.means i really care. but dont misjudge or misunderstand me. if i care and there's love for you , then that it is my 'problem'. i never or wont ask you to do the same. but just dont hurt me. talk to me. coz i dont like to hear it from others. be honest to me. n please dont just deny it and hoping that everything will be fine. it doesnt /wont work , baby. sooner or later, I'll know the truth. but, by the time you know how much i care for you, maybe its too late. I wont look back. I seek happiness. I just wanna be with those whom i can share my happiness.
when was the last time we shared our moment , happily ? idk.

happyheartaza

2010-10-28T21:30:00.002+08:00

I was really geram at someone today ( 28.10.10 ). why?
because one moron so stubborn , didnt want to admit her mistakes.VERY GLARING MISTAKE! its ok if she didnt want to admit but to fire me back because i reported it, was too much...TOOO MUCH! when I'm really angry* i wont become incredible hulk* but one of this two things will happen;
1. I ll cry- coz DAMN angry.
2. PUNCH that person.

you choose!

happyheartaza

CONVOCATION!!!

2010-09-29T22:29:00.005+08:00

Alhamdullillah...finally graduated in Science and Computer with Education ( Mathematics )- First Class Honours!!! ... got Dean's Award! and UTM award! ..didnt expect I will get all this when i decided to do second degree! but ..yeah..i tthink my brain only works with numbers or LOGIC! well, pease dont talk about my first degree. its not that i regret about it ..but..wrong course..didnt suit me! seriously...

congratulation!!!

Medal for Dean's Award : with CPA 3. 87 !!!

all the awards: UTM Award throphy, Dean's Award medal, certificates n the RM 500 mock cheque! ( yay got money! )

Dewan Konvo Dewan Sultan Iskandar, Uni Teknologi Malaysia.

with friends : aishah, yati n sabiah

happyheartaza

Aidil Fitri

2010-09-14T22:40:00.003+08:00

raya tahun ini terasa kekurangan. kerana ketiadaan abang ipar , abang amran yang telah pergi menemui Ilahi pada april lalu. selepas sembahyang raya, kami mengunjungi pusara abang. sedihnya. titis airmata membasahi pipi sambil membaca surah yassin. semoga roh abang dicucuri rahmatNya dan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.

apa pun raya tetap meriah dengan kunjungan saudara, sahabat dan jiran. malam raya selepas solat Isya' , DAM DAM...mercun time!!!( tak sedar diri la ). tak kisahlah walaupun mercun diharamkan, black market ada!! haha...

ni gambar adik ambilkan...

"ok fire!!!" Along zali mula membakar mercun. walao eh...so loud!!! Dam..bomb!!! bila dah satu kampung main mercun dengan bunyi yang kuat, rasa macam perang pulak. berlawan-lawan bunyi paling kuat. " lets attack Maxis tower! " , pemancar Maxis yang kurang dari 100 m ( tak tau la macamana boleh bina stesen pemancar begitu dekat dengan rumah ) terus jadi mangsa serangan mercun kami!! but the best part- bila bakar bunga api yang ada 30 das! macam sambut tahun baru!! pagi -pagi raya pun bakar mercun...cebisan kertas merah bertabur depan pintu rumah..." jangan sapu ...cantik ...ada ong " la dah macam CNY la pulak! who care! 1malaysia maa...

ni la...tak sapu sampai petang.... CNY!!!

walaupun meriah tapi penat...so tiring...tetamu datang silih berganti. hari raya bagi kami adalah hari berkumpul keluarga kami termasuk pakcik makcik sepupu cucu cicit!. family gathering penuh rumah. rumah kami jadi tempat berkumpul kerana nenek tinggal dengan kami dan emak anak perempuan sulung. so memang setiap tahun rumah kami akan jadi sibuk, bising, kecoh, meriah ...SERONOK!!! siapa yang untung? ting ting ting uncle jual aiskrim!!! ye lah.. pukul 11 je uncle ni dah tunggu depan gate rumah!!!

Angpau? haha I mesti dapat...sepatutnya tak boleh dapat dah ..tapi abah bagi, abang bagi, kakak bagi , adik I pun bagi...pakcik makcik pun bagi...so ambil je lah..ye lah I cikgu je... hahaha...

happyheartaza

2010-08-22T12:51:00.003+08:00

it's not easy to be me.seriously. i'm always HAPPY with myself. with everything that God gives me. happy with my loving family. mum, dad,brothers, sisters, nieces and nephews.friends.work.lover(s??? haha..)

but there are people who are not happy to see me happy! what's their problem?
hello...get a life people!

happyheartaza

2010-08-22T12:27:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan datang lagi. bulan puasa yang ditunggu oleh semua umat Islam. bulan suci .
aiyo..everyone knows that la...

Loves Allah and He loves you. Always. very simple. I always got gastric...must eat every two hours but coz of ramadhan, I want to puasa . and I dont get gastric! miracle? no coz I love Allah and i do it solely coz of Him. and I know He loves me....

This time I hope it would be better than last year..physically, emotionally and spiritually!
Really? yes coz this year i finished my part time degree ( crazy thing!!!!) so got time to go to the mosque. pray a lot. special prayer only during ramadhan. seek for His blessing. His loves. His forgiveness. be more grateful for everything that He gives me.

eh ..that day after form one entrance exam in school , I went to pavilion with ...who else ..Apple-who-loves-Pav! I found the book about the meaning of names. So read this book and found my name. it's a hebrew name! and the meaning : " A GOD'S GIFT"! No wonder i cant find my name in malay/ muslim.! but i love the meaning. so now you know why my email name is ' gifted'!

happyheartaza

2010-07-24T12:56:00.008+08:00

Props making and stage setting for the last two weeks before the concert really made me gone crazy, impatient and all sorts of the dark side of AZA! The colours of each day :

-morning before entering hall to do props : orange + red

- hall+ making props : Black

But, there was one day that I jumped and jumped like a small girl when i received a fax from Uni. Teknologi Malaysia saying that : PENCALONAN ANUGERAH NAIB CANSELOR (AKADEMIK). What ? I'm one of the candidates for the highest award in the Uni? seriously I was extemely happy. Eventhough I am a Dean's List for 8 semesters, to me, to be nominated to receive this award also was like ...an honour. whether i win or not ...let see this September! Finally , after struggling for five years as a part time student , i got my second degree in Science and Computer with Education ( major in Maths). My final semester / exam GPA : 4.00 !!!! All As maa!!! CGPA : 3.8 why ? weak in memorizing all the theories and philosophies! ( yeah my worst subject : Philosophy of Education ! ) Yes, being a part time student, really taught me how to manage my time and sacrifice a lot, A LOT ! Weedays , as a teacher. Weekend , Sat ( 2pm -10 pm )and Sun , 8 am- 6pm as a student! Sien and siao !!!

Winning this award- is every uni student's dream!!!

so my face for dat lucky day

happyheartaza

2010-07-24T11:37:00.016+08:00

FLOWER DRUM SONG - WMS CONCERT

I must say that the Concert was AWESOME! Why? I was sceptical when the school suggested to stage this musical movie coz for someone like me , I want something like "FAME" or "GREASE" ... I mengantuk / was sleeping/ dreaming while watching the DVD..seriously... and have to replay/ rewind ( more than five times! ). I was like OMG!!!! I like the storyline , the values in the story but there's something missing ! BORING! and the next day I asked my friends " hey , who's gonna sing or dance 'Chop Suey!!!??? Dont make me fall asleep AGAIN!!!" .

so after two months of practice and practice and practice .... FDS of WMS was really AWESOME!!!Much better than the DVD! even the Chop Suey Song was amazing! Everything turned out very well. Kudos to all teachers and students.

Someone asked me( cant remember who ) : "Celestial garden... so where is the garden?"

me : hey like Ampang Park, got park meh?
worst posing ever!!!

Props, stage setting and Backstage Crew :

***thanks a lot and luvs a lot for helping me :

Apple, Dyan, EngSeng, ZiYang, Benjamin, GuiMing, KhaiYuen ( for three years helping me),KhaiMeng,Chun Kit, Danny, YongHui, Stan, Kheng Yew, Gary, Lynna, Yen Jin, Kee Yee, Woei Cong, Khai Seng, Charn Wah, Zhe Chung, Yeow Wha, Shaneal.

Am so sorry if I hurt you ( sure got! ) . With all the 'tastes' that 'blended' together : bitter, sweet sour and 'ma chi' ( hahaha) , I appreciate all the single thing, the hardwork, effort, patient and care that you all did/gave.

I know I gave them this ' angry face' for the last two weeks

and this...

and my fav one-liner....

Thanks to my colleague : Mdm Kamala, Mr Louise, Mr Nathan and Mr Siva.

Crew Outing : Pizza Hut + "Inception" ( how I wish I can build my own dream =))

And this what the crew gave me for ' my birthday' - too early la...!!! They even sang the birthday song in Pavilion loudly, publicly !

but yeah..i know I'm always SEXY! ( haha...)

luv,

happyheartaza

2010-07-07T00:54:00.004+08:00

A NEW DAY HAS COME...

I see the light in your eyes...

happyheartaza

2010-07-06T23:50:00.006+08:00

Gosh...the concert is in just few weeks time...I'm DEAD!!! props havent done yet! stress? yes... (you are abnormal if you dont have stress!)...as usual...i dont like to talk if preoccupied with not only concert but other things as well. seriously. i have NO MOOD TO TALK to anyone, ANYONE, ( not even to dearie - i didnt see her last week! worst!) and i got irritated, annoyed when some students kept asking me..

"are you ok?" seriously..i can become a MONSTER if too many ( max 6 ppl !) people ask me this question! Eat them all!!! Worst , if that question was the first thing i heard early in the morning! If quiet then they thought I'm not OK, if i talked, they said noisy...then what??? but yeah..they are my students...somehow i see happiness in them...they are part of my life...

so entered 4m class, wanted to teach " tangent to a circle" but i stopped. Suddenly this picture appeared...in my head! so drew it on the whiteboard

Me : ok class what is this?

students: set...subsets...circles..

Me : No.. it is a mexican frying an egg!

Students : OMG...hahahahahaha

and know what? I de-stressed hearing them laughing!! That was at almost 1 pm and that was the first time i laughed and de-stressed for that day! so weird...coz it's not that i never make joke ( or LAME jokes).. but to see some people who normally just grin , but this time also laughing...dats ahhh...like me eating strawberry chocolate! but seriously ,it's weird!!

happyheartaza

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happyheartaza

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You

2010-06-18T13:20:00.001+08:00

this one is for you sayang! I know you like this song.

when i look at you..

luv,
happyheartaza

2010-06-17T20:57:00.003+08:00

Went out to pavillion with friends. looking for place to eat. it was lunch hour. crowded. then i saw someone. i pretended i didnt see her. but i told my friend . mixed feeling. but ahh nevermind. still searching for place then suddenly
" still remember me? " she asked.
God! She found me ! was she following me ?I didnt know what to say. stunned?
" yea..." short reply..
" I saw you just now. then i follow you to make sure it was you.." and her eyes-gosh! the way she looking at me ... i turned and looking for my friend...
"oh..err.. i thought you're in ..."
" no i just transferred here..."

God.my heart! beating very fast. in my head " I've erased the memories of you...why today me meet again?"

seven years ago ,
I was at home when she called " hei, what are you doing ?"
"nothing...thinking of you haha" yes true . I was thinking of her coz i remember that time i was looking at our photos.
" really? so sweet. i miss you. i got fever. "
" fever? go and see doc"
" i went already but ..."
" but wat?"
" I want to see you..seriously...please"
" ok...i see you later"
so i went to her house...she so 'manja' and I noticed something, our photo hanging on her wall and written on it
' I LOVE AZA' .
we were friends - close friends. we always meet. and always on the phone till wee hour. we love each other. really. i love her. she loves me. but she misunderstood. she thought more than friend. God! I not crazy. I had to stop all this- i mean her ' extremely loving me more than just friend!' but i didnt know how until one day I saw her with her friend- a guy . I didnt really knew that man , just the name. So that night, she called me . our convo as usual till I told her that I saw her with that guy. her voice changed.
"oh thats my friend.I thought you know him?"
" yes but..so close...both of you look so like match each other..so sweet , I like it"
All of sudden , she screamed at me " what are you talking about? you dont trust me? why are you saying this? why you want to hurt me?...Aza, I only love you...!!"
I hang up! i ignored her calls many times after that. Luckily she didnt know my house!

one day i got phone called. It was her. " Aza..can we talk"
" yeah can but let me tell you something..." I told her everything. the last thing i said,
" we can be friend, close friend, I love you as my best friend, nothing more or maybe like loving a sister.."
this time she hang up ...and that was the last time we talked...

and today,after seven years, we meet again...only God knows my feeling...

happyheartaza

2010-06-17T19:09:00.002+08:00

Seeing is believing!
I still on bed , tired after coming back from Club Med Cherating when i got phone call from my brother , Along Zali ,telling me that his daughter is in hospital.fainted. unconcious! God, please not again . we just lost our brother couple of months ago. My brother actually was on the way to Kelantan to visit his father-in law so he asked me to go to hospital first. Reached hospital , emergency ward but all that the doctor said was " oh, she just got hyperventillation. nothing serious . can take her home. dont worry..take care" thank God. But I noticed that my niece , Lulu, looked so weak. took her home. my brother reached KL that night and noticed something wrong with Lulu.So we decided to go back to our hometown.

" eh this car like so heavy...cant speed! " Along said.
I looked at the speedometer, " 90 km/h only? cant go faster? "
something weird. It's REXTON! normally he drives like more than 130 km/h !
" something wrong. recite some quran versus " Along requested.
after a while, the car could speed!...yes something wrong somewhere...something following us!
Lulu looked very weak but started saying something which hardly can be heard. Her eyes - bigger than usual like looking for something. then she started like screaming . her voice was different-not her voice. We tried to hold her and continued to recite quran.

Along decided to take her to see our uncle who is -not bomoh- but know how to 'cure' this kind of disease/penyakit /histeria caused by evil spirit.
My uncle started to do his ' practice' - reciting some quran versus- when Lulu started screaming . She became stronger and sound like a man! " AKU NAK KELUAR!", 'he' said this many times. I knew 'someting'-that evil spirit- in her body!" AKU NAK ILA!"
Ila? who is Ila? after almost an hour struggling with 'Lulu' ..she concious but really weak.
then my uncle put an egg to her hand and recite something. Then he took the egg , broke it , and we SAW a face on the yolk -scary face- and Lulu said " I saw it on the way back to my hostel!"

few minutes later, Wafi, Lulu's younger brother barged in, frightened " wafi nampak hantu atas bumbung rumah tadi tapi dah hilang! "

Ya Allah! I only believe in You! Please protect us from this evil spirit!

happyheartaza

2010-06-09T18:37:00.012+08:00

Yay! The BIGGEST event of this year! World Cup 2010 South Africa. Ready? yup!

My England away jersey No 4 Gerrard weh!bought 4 years ago . No..not from chow kit or Petaling Street but straight from London! I was wearing it and gonna wear this everytime England match coz Rooney's jersey is on the way!( yea waiting for my sis to come back from UK ). and yay! Gerrard is the Captain! Come on baby!

my hope for this World Cup :

1. England will be the champion! -eventhough my friends said it's a ZERO hope! No, i'm optimist!

( if not England, then Spain lorr! )

fuyoh! my ..MY jersey!( can fit or not?!!! lol )

2 My fav player, Rooney wont swear to the referee! else Red card! His skills on the pitch undeniable! Shoooh CR! get the golden boot!

3. He will use his 'last minute shoot' magic to win all matches!

but sad la..beckham cant play! wait..see he's still the most handsome footballer. Sorry la, to me CR not handsome at all! erk! this is football..face is not important.. proven by Rooney. lol.

the best goalkeeper, iker casillas. yay! he is coming to KL, August!

and the football world sure miss this guy, the football living legend, Zinedine Zidane!

His ' head butts' in the World Cup 2006 wont be forgotten! haha.yeah now i can laugh..four years ago when the ref sent him off , i cried! but I honoured him.he 'head-butt'-ed to the Italian coz the italian insulted his sister! He 'sacrificed' for her sister , red-carded during final match, in his last appearance ! damn sad...DAMN SAD!

whatever it is...i'm just ready to sacrifice my 'sleeping time'!

" We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's' worth having, it's worth fighting for "
- Cheryl Cole "fight for love"

happyheartaza

2010-05-22T16:01:00.005+08:00

Recently one of my students asked me whether i really wanted to become a teacher. I was laughing . " not really ". Then i remembered , once my teacher asked me ( I was in primary, think standard 3 or standard 4 ) ,

" kamu nak jadi apa besar nanti?" tanya Cikgu Hamidah ( not bad, i can still remember her name and her beautiful face with her long hair! )

" nak jadi polis!" yes, that was my answer! ya lah, selalu rasa excited , inspired ( kononnya! ) seeing my father in that uniform!

hahahahaaha ...the whole class laughing at me..

" hahaha...budak kecil, pendek nak jadi polis! hahahaha", i heard my friend, Sam, said that, laughing loudly and ..

Buk! my book hit his face..! padan muka...

but seriously , that time, if any teacher or anyone asked about ambition, the popular answers would be : teacher, police, nurse, doctor, engineer, and A GIRLISH answer : housewife ( how the heck that the girl can think that is an ambition!!!). No such answers like : IT expert, aerospace engineer, ..bla bla..

so, why now in teaching profession? economic recession! YES ! I graduated when our country was having bad economic recession. many graduates were jobless. So, before my final exam, during the study leave ( supposed to stay in campus and study but i balik kampung!) I decided to register with Education Department because there was a program called " Skim Khidmat Siswazah". and alhamdulillah , Thank God, right two weeks after i finished my final year exam, i was offered by the Edu dept to teach bm and science! so i went to that school ,STAR, my alma mater , and my first day was huh! not bad la...but form two kids were really NAUGHTY!!! and again THANK GOD, reached home after school, i saw a letter , an offer letter from : Methodist High School, Seremban. Subject : Mathematics , Tingkatan Enam! bye,bye STAR and MHS changed everything! and after two years in MHS I was transfered to MCKL...and now WMS!

Seriously, IF CSI : MIAMI or NY or Vegas , aired in 80s , I, AZA ALIAS, definitely now not a teacher but in CRIMINAL FORENSICs ( Horatio + Mac )! hahaha...

definitely Teoh Beng Hock Case would be 'settled' in a day( ok a week )!

but one thing , some people say that I should be a lawyer. why???!!!

happyheartaza

2010-05-04T20:54:00.005+08:00

Went to Kampar for WMS conference.. eventhough no outdoor activities but it was awesome. rebranding WMS sentul and other WMS ( malacca, seremban, klang and ipoh) - above and beyond.

WMS new brand ( new badge???) Nice, like it

guess what? so excited to see my add maths and physics teacher , mr tan hiang hong aka tan haha. surprisingly, he still can recognize me ( really ahh???) -teacher's pet maaa!!! but, yes he's a good teacher .superb. but like to compare my cousin and me..yeah la..my cousin, Azurin really smart , good student, attentive

" hey, look at your azurin, so quiet, focused,...you aarr... kacau orang "

" but i finished my work...dia tu sangat bosan!!!"

still remember the time when he called all those get physics below 60 for exam and he asked them to stand outside the lab . I looked at him , waiting for him to call me .He looked at me and said...

" the rest sit down and quiet! "

my friend, Lap Yen " eh, why he didnt call you??"

how would i know??

Mr tan haha n me

then , i have to give speech -"why I teach?"! nervous saio!

comments from others :

" good speech"

" that was very inspiring "

" very touching" (????)

-and i thought i was talking crap!!!

mrs Mathew: hey, why dont want to talk about basketball??

he he he he...

happyheartaza

2010-04-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

I lost my phone thursday 22/4...some mangkuk stole it...so people , please dont call/ sms my old number 0129031794. Update : 0173057398.

happyheartaza

2010-04-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

8th April

while teaching in class of 4M , i received a message sent by the office staff ," brother-in-law unconcious. call younger sister". I was confused - brother in law ? Abang Amran or Paul? was about to call my younger sister, but received phone call from my bro , from his voice i knew something not good happened but still calm. "go to UH now . Emergency. Take the kids from school and come here asap". Still thinking Amran or Paul?

reached hospital, saw all my family members already there...i noticed almost everyone i saw crying. went straight to the ward...Abang Amran! he was 'sleeping'-coma! My sis, Eya, couldnt say a word. I was told by my younger sister, Haiza, about everything. Abang Amran was found unconcious in the car after sending Eya to her office. According to the doctor , he was unconcious almost two hours before the parking attendant found him. ' Expect the worst' that' s what the doctor told me.
"heart attack?"
"No. Brain stem stroke."
suddenly , my whole body weak...expect the worst? be prepared?
" why dont we take him to Pantai Hospital " , my sister suggested when she noticed that the support machine functioning manually...
" sorry ma'am, we cant do that..any hospital wont accept this case..i'm sorry" .Damn! "we'll do our best to save him. CT scan tomorrow"

9th April. 11 am.

My brother called " the doctor said better let him go, he advised to remove all the support machine. the doctor is waiting for us to remove all ". Reached UH. Eya said wait for Amran's dad from Kelantan . His flight delayed. only reached KL about 7pm! For them ,Amran is 'suffering-coma' that time but for us Abang Amran already gone . Yes he's 'gone' around 10 am! His room actually packed with families and friends. visiting him. my father, my sister talking to him. me? trying to convince my self that Abang already gone. hard to believe. we decided to removed the machine the next day . I didnt sleep the whole night. 'accompany' him. and so the rest of my family.

10th april.( sports day for my school )

7am , hospital : the doctor came and removed the machine except the oxygen.. my face wet...and my sis and the kids ... ...we're 'going' to lose our beloved brother, husband, father - everyone's friend..
Instead to Kelantan his hometown , We took him to our hometown , Gemas because we wanted him to be 'close' to us.

11.30 am , our home: the ambulance with abang inside reached home. so many people , friends and neighbours already waiting ...the heartwrenching moment ...my sis , Haiza , once a medical officer , took the hardest job in her life- removing the last support machine . her tears dropped...and so did others ...
after almost 15 seconds, she said " Abang has gone..." Al-Fatihah...We lost Abang , a week before his 43rd birthday...

He was a good brother in law. In fact he just like my own brother. I have to admit that I didnt like him at first because I didnt know him when he married to my sister. They met and got married when they still studying in US. and because of that my father didnt want me to further study in oversea! they came back with my niece, an american citizen child! but then I admitted he's such a nice brother , loving ,caring , humourous, smart - masters in maths/statistic! I lost someone who always make a cup of 'teh tarik' or Milo for me everytime we watch football match , MU lost one big fan..

Now, I have to be strong for my sister and the kids. From the outside she looks strong- as an actuarist , she always say life is risky- but inside only God knows. Even , until now I still couldnt believe he's no more with us.

Rest in Peace...Al-Fatihah..

happyheartaza

2010-03-31T20:19:00.003+08:00

idk...but extra happy.

listening to one of my fav songs ... missing someone...

"Everywhere" - Michelle Branch.

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're,
you're never there
But when I sleep you're,
you're everywhere ....You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone ....I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me..... Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone.... I'm not alone.... I am not alone
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me Do you see me?

and "Time for Miracles!"

now back to work...got a lot of things to do...(really? ) YESSSS! plan to finish everything this friday. yay! lucky WMS got 'Good Friday' holiday...but my friend booked ticket to Langkawi.. duh...excited to go Langkawi? seriously NOOOO! why? just go there and shopping! dont really like shopping... i can go shopping here, KL, got KLCC, Midvalley, Pavilion...but what to do ...booked already...haih sien laa...

happyheartaza

2010-03-19T20:23:00.010+08:00

whoa...one week didnt up date this blog.so dead!

why?

1. marking exam papers. i turned 'siao' marking some of the answer scripts.and their marks? almost fainted! what to do ...just maths..not addmath,or physics or chemistry, the subjects that they can die for!...they think maths not important but ,hey ,CORE subject!

2. finishing my thesis :Golden ratio and Fibonacci numbers! the ratio and number sequence that applied in human and nature. the beauty of maths that beautify the whole world! this ratio can be found in human , architecture , music, art, nature and the golden ratio point on earth is Mecca!

the golden ratio in human body..perfect body!!!

3. study +dying for complex variables test which is on saturday-tomorrow baby!

I dont like commenting/ scolding lady ( coz i'm 'gentleman' ! ) but I really got irritated by some people (ladies !) who use their long fingernail to choose/test/check whether the fruits are good or not.Hello! your long fingernails are dirty! got bacteria! and you left the 'disgusting' marks and the bacteria on the fruits for others to buy/eat? damn kiasu! why dont you do the same while choosing durians? So, mothers, sisters and 'lovers' please dont use your fingernails!

MU vs Liverpool??? the last time, MU lost to Liverpool!

I want MU and Rooney to win but definitely feel sad -not for Liverpool-but Steven Gerrard!

why la Gerrard not in MU?

but I agree with benitez- Gerrard is the best player to be named as England Captain .

ok time to study (+dying) ! Opps! I got another online test to be completed!

happyheartaza

CONGRATS!!

2010-03-11T21:46:00.005+08:00

bravo! Excellent result. happy and proud of wesleyans .heart to 5M, 5L and 5W.
5M : for the FIRST TIME all students of non-science class got A in Math!
special thanx to these people for making my day ( my 'eat the chocolate' day! ) :-
Sammie, VernKit,Dino,KarYau,Mark and XianWei.
and for them:
Sek Hoong and SiauWei: I was looking for both you.. but you left already...so Congrats!
QinXian: way to go!
Russell:eventhough got 'TH', still proud of you. you worried about your Account but,hey you got A+!

to those who didnt get good result or didnt reach the target , it's not the end of the world. Will get better next time.

see you ( I wish all of you ) Honours' Day ! aiyo now i have to prepare more than 200 certs !

hope that 2010 batch will do better. JANGAN MALAS!

happyheartaza

2010-03-07T22:32:00.006+08:00

huh! took me hours to do this program just to draw a triangle! just one mistake and my eyes almost 'blind' to track the mistake ! I rather do calculus,complex variables, partial equation or numerical analysis than programming java ,C++!

happyheartaza

2010-03-07T22:08:00.007+08:00

Eventhough they lost , but I m happy, proud with their performance.Impressive!Sad? yeah really sad...coz have been watching them, supervising them for four years ( except Ivan-since form 1!).Like Sheng Feng said,

" if this team cant make it to semi, then there's no hope for future team.This team is the best!".

the ball didnt enter coz bad fengshui ..the no 4 and no 13 ( 1+3=4) standing near ivan!

thanks for the Pizza!

Now, my hope for the girls..gambateh!

happyheartaza

GOOD BYE FRIEND...

2010-03-02T22:48:00.005+08:00

I was lepaking at OldTown after 'shopping' for yellow house, sms from Kak Noor begitu mengejutkan. suasana ceria di OldTown hilang. " Ganes passed away..." lost words. weeping.took lrt to go back to school but I was 'lost' -thought i reached sentul but instead titiwangsa!took another lrt.

"hi , cikgu baru kan? I'm Ganesh. welcome to MCKL.hope you happy in this school" he introduced himself. smiling.warm welcome.

itulah kali pertama dia bersuara. a nice guy with sense of humour. lovable.Seorang guru dan rakan yang baik. A good leader.

actually ada banyak kenangan yang tak mungkin boleh lupa tentang Ganes. idk, both of us always , most of the time, in the same group during staff development. to be frank, i always happy if we were in the same group coz i can learn a lot from him. and he always invited me to join him to play football ( as if he knew that i m ' a guy that stuck in girl's body!') and i never say no! " Aza, kenapa ganas sangat..?" gurau Ganes ,bila another man teacher sprained his ankle when he tried to save my penalty kick! both of us couldnt stop laughing! He's good in sports . He won teachers' race and yes, our house, Yellow house was the champion when both of us were the house master/mistress.

I wont forget our trip to Japan.Yes, the first ever our school trip to Japan. He suggested my name to go with him and then asked me to choose another teacher to go with us. dan setiap kali ada lawatan pelajar sama ada dari Japan atau australia , both of us will arrange the program.

Still remember when the Interact Club were allowed to set up a 'project'- a project that allowed the whole school to watch Brazil-England World Cup 2002 in the library( canteen too) and he did 'samba' when Ronaldo scored during Brazil-England world cup 2002. that was the only time we were like 'enemy' coz i supported England!" why support england..no hope la!"

the good old days...

"hi, za, how are you? baik?" .itulah soalan terakhir dari Ganes, looking at me and hoping that I wont ask him the same thing.

and this morning, went to his funeral. tried not to cry but...couldnt. bila saja melihat Ganes terbaring kaku, that was the time that realized that he's gone.and he still 'smiling' ...

rest in peace. Ganes.

siva.ganes.me.leong.priya.

happyheartaza

2010-02-25T22:39:00.003+08:00

SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL

The sayings of Prophet Muhamad ( Peace and Blessing Be Upon Him ) :

“With knowledge man riseth to the heights of goodness and to a noble position, associateth with sovereigns in this world, and attaineth to the perfection of happiness in the next.”

“It is better to sit alone than in company with the bad; and it is better to sit with the good than alone. And it is better to speak words to a speaker of knowledge than to remain silent; and silence is better than bad words.”

“When he dies, people will say, 'What property has he left behind him?' But the angels will ask, 'What good deeds has he sent before him?'”

"Acquire knowledge, it enables its professor to distinguish right from wrong; it lights the way to heaven. It is our friend in the desert, our company in solitude and companion when friendless. It guides us to happiness, it sustains us in misery, it is an ornament amongst friends and an armour against enemies."

"When you see a person who has been given more than you in money and beauty, look to those, who have been given less."

"Be not like the hypocrite who, when he talks, tells lies; when he gives a promise, he breaks it; and when he is trusted, he proves dishonest."

"Do you know what is better than charity and fasting and prayer? It is keeping peace and good relations between people, as quarrels and bad feelings destroy mankind."

"Conduct yourself in this world, as if you are here to stay forever; prepare for eternity as if you have to die tomorrow."

happyheartaza

ENJOY THE SHOW!

2010-02-18T10:44:00.011+08:00

It's holiday and wednesday night- the night which I prefer to stay at home and watch tv prog-my favs-and at the same time online!Keep switching to 701 and 711 channels. Starting at 8.00 pm ...

I like music.like to sing.like to listen to nice song. like to listen to the contestants, very confident, good or bad. like simon cowell-and his sharp tongue! but , positive side-not pretentious. and Posh shouldnt be there( anti-Posh coz she 'ruined' Beck!)

then

musical comedy drama.very entertaining.the act. the songs.

in between CSI and luckyly not CSI :Miami . else..I gila nak tengok mana satu dulu...but I know I will choose CSI:Miami. Why? Horatio!

so, that's ME! For some people, they might think, I m 'less matured' or 'childish/childlike' just because I like to watch this kind of TV program or going for concert ( but not boyband concert like BLG! ). Just because I LIKE MUSIC!
That's VERY WRONG!! They think its just an entertaiment.To me , it is more than that. It's about ideas, creativity, interests, performing arts and etc. Well, I m just being myself. I know ' when,where, who, whom ,which ,how' to be serious, matured and focused. and 5W1H to be 'childish'. By the way, without childlike-ness' in Steven Spilberg, James cameroon , Michael Bay and etc , we wont have Transformer, Avatar , Princess and Frog, bla..bla...And for someone like me who cant sing , cant act , cant dance -admiring those who can, happy for them!

happyheartaza

bermoral?

2010-02-16T18:46:00.007+08:00

CERITA I:

TAJUK : Pembuli jalanraya

date : 13th Feb 2010

Venue : Nilai-Seremban-Port Dickson highway

Yes..cuti CNY. mesti balik kampung. so, lepas shopping kat KLCC, macam hari raya, drive terus balik. tak ada traffic jam sangat until Nilai. heck, Nilai-seremban supposedly take only 15 min but this time 2 hours! sabar aje la. then, lepas seremban sudah tak jam..mula lah speeding 120km/h ( biasalah kan...). dan bermulalah episod 'PEMBULI JALANRAYA'.

I was driving on the right lane. from my rear mirror i could see this GEN2, gila- gila pecut , sekejap lane kanan ,sekejap lane kiri dan sekejap lane tengah. I still on the right lane. and this tinted Gen2 , suddenly right behind my car , closer and closer, tailgating. Heck , think i care! I kept the same speed as the car next to me, on the middle lane.dan BUAT BODOH dan TAK TAU aje! I wont give in! So , this brown Gen2 driver, got fed up,angry or wateva...he moved to the left lane . Still speeding, he kept changing lanes till he almost hit a black Viva. and this ugly road bully started. So, Gen2 marah dengan Viva. mula-mula showed Viva dirty sign, then tried to hit Viva on the left.Viva still on the middle lane.Gen2 changed lane to the right , and tried to hit Viva again. Other drivers , including me , slowing down-just in case accident maa...and watching!
Gen2 changed lane to the middle ,in front of the Viva and brake! Viva changed lane to the left...Gen2 followed and brake again.Viva moved to the middle..Gen2 to the right lane..and slowing down, letting Viva to speed. That was not the end! Gen2 started speeding , wanted to hit Viva BUT on TWO WHEELS!!!!

( Singapore Motorshow! )

how the heck he did that! seriously dangerous! Viva tried to escape but almost hit another car .and Gen2 speeding up, honking all the way!!! ...OMG...

Moralnya : Hormati hak pengguna jalanraya ... jangan jadi pembuli...nak cepat..BELI JET!!!

CERITA II

Tajuk : Pembuangan bayi

Isu ini telah lama diketengahkan oleh banyak pihak. Ada yang menangis mengenangkan nasib ciptaan Allah ini yang tidak dipandang dan dicampak merata-rata seolah-olah ianya sesuatu yang Allah ciptakan tanpa nyawa.

Hampir setiap minggu kita mendengar dari televisyen, akhbar dan majalah tentang kes pembuangan bayi dan kebanyakannya yang ditemui mati dalam keadaan yang menyedihkan dan ada yang bernasib baik ditemui dalam keadaan masih hidup.

Terbaru, mayat bayi yang dijumpai terbakar dalam tong sampah. mungkin si 'jahat' mahu menghapuskan bukti. Hish..apa nak jadi dengan remaja di malaysia. Inilah akibatnya kalau kurang didikan agama. tak kiralah agama apa sekali pun. Jika semua orang mematuhi ajaran dan hukum agama masing-masing, masalah sosial tak akan timbul. Tidak ada satupun agama dalam dunia yang membenarkan pasangan belum berkahwin tinggal serumah dan seks sebelum kahwin. samada Islam mahupun Kristian , mengharamkan perkara ini. Ini dinyatakan dengan jelas dalam Al-Quran dan Bible. peredaran masa menukar cara hidup moden yang 'menghalalkan' segalanya. Cara hidup kebaratan diikuti tetapi kita tidak seharusnya menyalahkan barat kerana kita perlu ikut cara yang dibenarkan oleh agama bukan budaya.

Adakah membuang bayi dapat menutup malu? adakah membuat dosa dengan membunuh bayi dapat menghapus dosa berzina? banyak kempen atau ceramah bagi mengatasi masalah ini diadakan oleh majlis agama TAPI what's the point giving 'ceramah' to married couple. they are not the ones 'dump' the babies! hello! Yes, something wrong somewhere! few months ago I watched this TV3 programme , Al-Kulliyah ( a talk show that discuss about Islam and etc) and the topic was about 'mat rempit'. and the audience? NOT MAT REMPIT, instead, ORANG-ORANG TUA, MAKCIK-MAKCIK, yang memang pious , tak akan merempit! and mat rempit dont watch AL-Kulliyah! same thing, why' pot pet' at makcik2 yang tak mungkin buang anak!

So difficult to curb this social-illness. Think, Malaysia should have bank of DNA to trace the culprits- the couple. It's so UNFAIR, if only the girl were charged and the 'moron-evil' guy escape!

Moralnya : Fahami dan patuhi ajaran agama...pasti selamat dunia akhirat.

happyheartaza

SHUT UP!!

2010-02-11T23:35:00.007+08:00

'' If you got nothing good to say about others, then keep your mouth shut!''

That's true. Cant help it but , yes, we do talk about our family, friends, colleague and others. It's NORMAL to talk about things that happen around us. But then, there are some people who like to make up story about other people. in other word ' slander' or 'fitnah'. why are they doing it?
are they happy to see their 'victim' or 'target' suffering? What they get when two 'good friends' hate each other? Worse if they are like ' two faces'. Like, to A , this 'mangkuk' says B badmouthing A and to B , he/she says another thing. Poor thing A and B believe all the things that mangkuk have told them.This is very bad! Why???Jealous? Got nothing better to do?

Only God Knows.

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happyheartaza

UN Day...

2010-02-07T10:59:00.030+08:00

5th Feb...

first ever...

UN Day-about food and costume! Beautiful costume...I wanted to wear the kimono but, to tell the truth, since 5L not performing , so ...CANCELLED!!!

5L!

SooAnn...nah satisfied?

Victor...one of the Chindians..

Li Vern

Eric!!!!!!!!

..awesome!! LeeXia and me 'crazy' looking for her!

SuePing and Pat ..even our office staff dressed up..me?

THANKS TO 5L!!!!

My Fair Ladies..

hait!!

Promotion...better buy ,else, see my sword?!

Vilyn..Esther..

supposed for tea ceremony...but...

the colourful jelly...

MingZhi,EnTing.SzeYinn.Rowena

the happy faces of 5L

Brenda and D.Selvia

bollywood eh?...

and...tadhaaa...

err..which country?

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I missed the jogathon...

and the LEO CHARITY DINNER...

happyheartaza

2010-01-31T19:23:00.005+08:00

"CONGRATULATIONS TO LEONG JIAN WEII
aka TAYLOR'S HARTAMAS
PRESIDENT OF STUDENT COUNCIL 2010! "

( taken from 5w blog-still alive !)

Jian Wei - Mr President? One of my "Twinkle Tots" became President of SC? Very rare Wesleyan chosen/voted as President in college...it's Taylor's wehh! Congrats ,JianWei!

So, Mr President - if you read my blog la- practice this..

happyheartaza

2010-01-31T01:21:00.006+08:00

Fuhh...finally I managed to submit so called online programming quiz-yeah quiz but hampir pecah kepala nak buat. My mistake actually coz i didnt/forgot to visit the e-learning website. The quiz started on 28th Jan , ended at 30th Jan 12 pm! Thank God I signed in this morning..else 10% marks gone for FREE!

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I Ignore You ? False

my actions speak louder than words? False

Giving up? False

( coz we never try ! )

You dont know me? True..Very true

why?

I've told you before that I prefer

to keep mum till i know the truth

Old saying "kalau tak ada angin pokok tak kan bergoyang"

Kalau tak berkata mereka tak menyampaikan

If I could turn back time

I dont want to know ,close to you

But since that wont happen,

I wish I can have the 'old' you ...

May everything you do

bring 'happiness' to you

FULLSTOP.

happyheartaza

2010-01-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

aku pulang tanpa dendam
kusalutkan kemenanganmu
aku pulang tanpa dendam
kuakui kekalahanku
kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita...

pohon kemaafan tanpa tahu kesalahan
mengalah agar gelora berhenti
aku hanya berdiam diri tapi bukan tak peduli
mencari di mana kesilapan diri dihina begini
mana benar mana palsu
keyakinan sedikit goyah
percaya masih ada
tapi tiada ruang membela diri
kau permata atau kaca?
bukan niat menilaimu..
Marah mu berpanjangan
Kesedihanku tak bertepian
Inikah kesudahan pilihan
Tiada lagi yang diharapkan
dirimu yang dulu ku sanjungi tak kan kembali
dirimu yang sekarang membenci
dendammu takkan berhenti...

2010-01-16T10:33:00.004+08:00

Took from Facebook - The picture of 5L .

Majority :Copying machine-reason: not enough time, same group same PEKA,too much homework too lil' time to think..Most Wanted Providers ?The captain, the monitor, Ping,Vilyn, June ,HuiMing!

Clowns : they( not one or two) make this class laughing all the time even when the teachers super serious! Who? Everyone in school knows them..clue? no need!

Musician + Singer : they can form a complete band / orchestra/ choir plus the best ever lyricist : San Yap!

None : NERD

Missing : Vegetables ( sleeping in class )-went to new zealand...

Stressed-Out : the Homeroom Teacher! But she's very optimist that each and everyone of them knows THE LIMIT- THE SKY!

happyheartaza

2010-01-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

YES! MY STAR IS BACK!

Ssooo HAAAPPPPYYYY coz MY STAR is back! 'Smiling' at me.

I know, my fault actually...I didnt mean it. I didnt ignore you..just busy. So, next time, if 'something' not right and with ALL the 'access' that you have to 'reach' me-communicate!Dont keep it to your self.

Sweetie-I See You!

happyheartaza

2010-01-06T22:43:00.003+08:00

A post via twitter from ex-student ,F5 2009 ..typical

Meaning? Teachers are liars? OMG ...

May God Bless You

happyheartaza

2010-01-04T20:57:00.005+08:00

First day of school...after long holiday...one word-DISASTER!have to wake up at 5 am..

First greeting from a student: haai madammm! Man U lost!

Duh! * not a good day for this form two kid!* DISASTER!

Entered the 5L - the same old 4L'09! Good to see them...

Saw this on the whiteboard -5L'09 AWESOME- really? ahah...have to ERASE!

Went to form four...gave simple question -PMR 100% A right?-

blank! every year like that...never do maths for two months...

Student: Madam ,I know your name but how to spell ?

Me : M.E.G.A.N.F.O.X !!!!

...hua hua hua....

*** ALIVE & KICKING ***

that's me, still
happyheartaza

2010-01-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

2010...

Expect a relaxed mind,

a peaceful soul, a joyful spirit

and HAPPINESS

Apply this three rules:

happyheartaza

2009-12-30T18:39:00.022+08:00

2009 ....FAREWELL...SAYONARA...

Setahun sudah berlalu. Tinggal kenangan. I'll keep the sweet memories. Thanks to all those who brought happiness to me. My heart to those who always with me, through thick and thin.
Terima kasih juga pada yang mengkritik , mengeji, menghina- hurt but I'll take those words, maybe can help me to change and become a better person. Maaf , ( sure got la ) atas salah dan silap saya selama ini. I'm not perfect.

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AZA 'Song of the Year 2009 - HALO'

" I dont want to be Idol but Icon" -Beyonce

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Welcome ... 2010

Hopefully better than 2009...sweeter...

like strawberry chocolate

-DOUBLE HAPPINESS-

Resolution?

-to achieve yesteryears resolution-be more ladylike!!!lol...

happyheartaza

7 MOMENTS IN MY LIFE

2009-12-27T18:03:00.006+08:00

Recap 7 ( my 'lucky' number ) things that happened in 2009 in my life.

1. The sweetest : My blogs...since 2007

2. Boring : Man U - M'sia Football Match. Supposed to be the sweetest but haih...boring! I didnt 'feel' the game. So sien.! maybe that time my mind was somewhere else..the school concert...or maybe watching the game with not-my-MU-buddy!(I blamed MU 'buddy'- VK and Liverpool -Dino!Dino, it's time to convert to MU! )

3. Wierd : I dont believe in superstitious...but since my doctor advised me to see 'bomoh' for traditional method to cure my 'illness' because he doubt about the virus infection ( yeah, after 'swallowed RM 4K !!!). I got fever only at night. So , Kak Noor took me to this bomoh and he said that a 'spirit' followed me from Pangkor . I went to pangkor , camping, a week before that! wth! Yeah, sometimes I 'see' it! Well, I Believe in GOD !

4. Funny :

Fida : Aza, tadi ada cikgu tu cakap kat saya , awak ni manja !

Me : hah....ha ha ( I couldnt stop laughing!!!)

I wonder who is this teacher..and Fida refused to tell...lol. Well , that teacher must be so lucky that she could 'see' the beauty side of me and wonder when did I 'accidently' show my 'manja-ness',since all this while I only show the ' dirty' side of me.Only those who are really close to me know how 'Manja' is me-my family!

5. Happening : My birthday - 'party in the jungle' . Back to nature!

6. Lame / Blur : Supposed to meet my friends at Pavillion, I went to KLCC...while 'waiting' , read book at kinokuniya...after one hour...

got sms : ' where r u? stil sleeping?'

' kinokuniya'

'wth u there...pavil la ...'

' not KLCC ?'

' ??? blur'

7. Embarassing : I Sent sms to the wrong person-my lecturer!

how? I was sms-ing with two different people ; my friend and my lecturer ,Dr Kay, . Different topics. sms after sms, so sms from Mimie : so, apa plan dis sunday?

and at the same time got sms from Dr Kay: so, we'll discuss this saturday .

without checking the sender ,press 'reply' : my sms : Can we go to spa or watch transformer?

and press 'send'. huh!!! Sent to Dr Kay!!!! Oh! Shitt!Hell! Damn!! Tried to cancel it but... SENT!!!

Sent to HIM!!! so ..no more sms.Called him , 'Dr, so sorry that sms not meant for you..to my friend!!' and he laughed at me..." I really thought you asking me a date at spa! " damn malu weh...worse have to see him on that saturday...and for the next four month next year..told Mimie..that woman!!!laughed like mad!

happyheartaza

2009-12-27T16:20:00.005+08:00

My Star...so bright...

bring happiness feel so close

but

its brightness...turned me blind

me hurt...

my star... so far couldnt reach

me hurt...

my star

time will heal...

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AVATAR! Superb! How sweet if that 'Pandora' really exist. I wanna go there...

Tsahaylu...

I See You- Leona Lewis

I see you I see you Walking through a dream I see you My light in darkness breathing hope of new life Now I live through you and you through me Enchanting I pray in my heart that this dream never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your life shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice I live through your love You teach me how to see All that’s beautiful My senses touch your word I never pictured Now I give my hope to you I surrender I pray in my heart that this world never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life I offer my love, for you When my heart was never open To the world that you have shown me But my eyes could not division All the colours of love and of life ever more Evermore I see me through your eyes Flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice And live through your love And live through your lifeI see you

I see you

**nice song**

happyheartaza

2009-12-24T20:35:00.003+08:00

Will have gathering at my sis house tomorrow. She will cook and I hope she follows Aunt Pat's recipe...I wont cook! as usual, from me , strawberry, marshmallow and chocolate!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

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CONGRATS TO MY NEPHEWS FOR GETTING STRAIGHT As IN PMR

RIZAL- 9As ( your Arabic damn keng la...dont kutuk me in arabic! hey..dont kacau la..can read this post later ..shuh..)

AIMAN -8As ( MRSM student muz get straight As else Rizal kutuk you maa )

HALIM -7As 1B ( got B for BM ? dont be sad..kami semua tahu BM kamu sangat teruk...silalah berusaha dengan lebih kuat...sila lah berhenti membaca manga kerana manga tak baik untuk BM- eh! I think your BM is not stand for Bahasa Melayu but Bahasa Manga!!! ha ha...)

Ouch!! you hit me...

They always bully me...but they gonna get 'something' from their 'brutal 'aunt !!!

and

Congrats also to F3 '09 Wesleyan ...

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Went to The Gardens yesterday from school for some gathering with my ex-students. Supposed meet at 1.30 pm but reached there almost 2pm. Then got problem to find parking. aiyo . Someone told me , better take lrt to MV haih..should listen to him...but...they were late also! so ok lah. So had 'lunch' with Jing Hang, Yean Xin and Alex Hooi. Boon Guan didnt come..betrayed us!Lot of stories...last we met Dec last year...like annual gathering ? But YeanXin had to leave early...so,left three of us pok pek till 6 pm...exchange stories by all ex-Interactors!!! yeah INTERACT...till we meet again...msn only la ...UK people !

happyheartaza

2009-12-22T00:10:00.007+08:00

9 days to 2010. hope 2010 better than 2009. too many not-happy-things happened this year.

1. January : I was hospitalized, Pantai Hospital , for four days-virus infection! actually I was sick for one month! Not so many people knew about this. only my family, my close friends and my student-Qin Xian (he called me to make sure I really in hospital-didnt believe me !) - even Russell said I was ponteng-ing -nice word from 'godson'( this 'godson' reminds me of Vilyn) !!!

2. March : My uncle passed away because of cancer. He was not really my uncle-Amirul's dad. When his condition deteriorating, my mum told me that he wanted to see me..idk why...just promised to see him during holiday...I was very grateful that I have that one week to spend time, taking care of him.

3. June : My brother met an accident. Thank God. Nothing serious.Just minor. Yeah, lucky it's Rexton, what if he drove ...

Ok.stop counting and remembering all the sad thing...no wait...

I lost my watch..in school...I know it's just BONIA not Tag Heuer or Omega..but its sentimental value...but in school!!!sure got dishonest people in WMS!!!

and lost my RING-my 'engagement ring'!!! Still looking for it but someone said " seize the present day not the past-just history". I know it's history but hey, still can get money by pawning the ring!!! lol.

and I LOST SOMEONE LATELY...NOT SURE! ( hated me aredy? It's ok..you're still in my prayer )

2010,

be good to me...

but one thing for sure ...

The Worst and the Sweetest things of 2009? resolution? next post...

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The Princess and The Frog...nice movie.A 5-star movie !

happyheartaza

2009-12-19T20:26:00.007+08:00

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I regret for not telling you the truth

... and you never ask ...

Goodbye and Farewell, dear...

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happyheartaza

2009-12-18T00:07:00.006+08:00

We Are The Champion!!

Congrats to our football team!

Pasukan bolasepak Malaysia berjaya mendapat pingat emas dalam perlawanan akhir bolasepak mengalahkan Vietnam 1 - 0 di SEA Games 2009.

Macam tak percaya je...ye la selalunya semua orang mengkritik pasukan bola sepak dan kualiti permainan mereka. Tapi mereka sudah buktikan dan menghantar mesej menutup mulut pengkritik-pengkritik ini ( termasuklah si Aza nie!) . Syabas!

Menonton perlawanan di kedai mamak ,memang best gila. Ye la, selalunya kat kedai mamak ni ramai-ramai tengok Manchester United main atau pun Liverpool ( tak sokong tapi nak tengok my lovely Steven Gerrard je...) tak de siapa yang peduli pun tengok Malaysia main.Bukan tak nak sokong tapi kalau tengok pun selalunya mengutuk je. memang sakit hati tengok. Tapi suasana kat mamak masa final Malaysia-Vietnam tadi sangat berbeza. Barulah nampak sokongan tak berbelah bagi..tak ada yang kutuk.Kiranya 200% sokong! Itulah sebenarnya perasaan sebenar rakyat Malaysia...Semua bersorak bila Malaysia gol-termasuklah mamat Bangla teh tarik kat kedai mamak tu- huh ! kalau tak sokong I panggil polis tangkap mamat Bangla ni -...Suasana yang sama waktu Malaysia menang badminton Thomas Cup 1992 selepas 25 tahun. Ada sorang mamat tu , yang paling kuat suaranya, jerit "Malaysia Boleh!!!" ...semua pun ikut jerit...macam kat Stadium Bukit Jalil pulak...tapi ada jugak yang I nampak menangis - lelaki pun menangis? well , real man do cry!..terlalu happy kot... ye lah selepas 20 tahun, last menang 1989 baru tahun ni dapat...Tapi suasana yang bising tadi bertukar senyap seketika sebelum semua orang kat kedai ni sama-sama berdiri dan nyanyi lagu Negaraku ...I rasa saaangggattt bangggaaa...nak menangis pun ada ...happy maa..HAPPYAZA maa..

Apapun , pada ketika pemimpin politik kat Malaysia ni sibuk dengan isu 'racism'( get lost with those racist!!! U DONT BELONG HERE !!!) , rakyatnya tak kira bangsa , 1Malaysia, bersatu dalam 'bolasepak' di kedai mamak!

Yang pastinya, someone owes me MU new jersey...no..Malaysian jersey -blue , number 7! next time dont bet with me!!! lol

the identical twin -aidil zafuan (no 7!-captain ) and zaquan adha
aidil is married to an actress , 12 years his senior!

adha? dating an actress , 5 years older than him

what's wrong with both of you? Love is blind...whatever la

as long as ...HAPPY

which one is aidil ? adha?

happyheartaza

2009-12-17T19:21:00.004+08:00

TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS ,

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431

HAPPY NEW YEAR 1431

happyheartaza

2009-12-14T20:14:00.010+08:00

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Morning :

9.00 :In school to do the timetable...still got problem with it. Generated the timetable for more than 10 times , still got teachers who will have more than three periods in a row. Worse , some teachers got seven periods in a day! I'm EVIL if I give them this kind of timetable. Penat la...In this case, "U Think I Care" doesnt apply!!They are my friends!! But if cant, then I have to, so sorry lor!

10.30 : Had meeting with the Principal and Form Supervisors. Discussed a lot. Made some changes.

Met Mr Peter .Opps.Datuk A R Peter ! Congratulated him for the title "Datuk" conferred by Sultan Selangor.

" Ala..now I can not call you bapak " .Yes , my friends and me call him "bapak" !
"No..no I prefer you call me that way ".
He is the man that builds up confidence in me-something that I'm still lacking!
He knew I got stage fright , no confidence, but he chose me to be the MC for school dinner to welcome our new chairman, a minister! and just me as MC! ( Evil mind gave idea to get mc that night!!)

"Sir, you know my english, SUCK!", not sure whether he heard the word 'SUCK'! Even my BM also tunggang langgang! I've problem to pronounce the words that have 'r' and 'l'. My teachers said I pelat! ( but my mandarin teacher said my mandarin is good!!!) What to do..I speak math !

"No, you can do it. Do worry.Go up there, speak, you can handle this function"

That night, took the challenge, konon berani sangatla, took the mic , looked at him , he smiled,nodded...bla bla ...phew...no mistake!!! Flawless!!!

" Well done !You did it !!!I know you can do it " But he didnt know ,behind the rostrum my leg was shaking, sweating!

Yeah, bapak taught me a lot.and so 'emak'. and still learning! They are my teachers-masters actually!

But at the same time , feel sad coz my another two 'teachers' are leaving- Mr Moore and Mr Ganes ...haih...

Back from school, went to KLCC, wanted to buy something for Christmas but couldnt find . Hard to find Xmas gift! And too many people...after almost two hours -one hour in Kinokuniya, my lepak place actually-, ...well i'm not the type who lurvvv to shop...so balik lor...still got few days to get that ' something'...

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happyheartaza

2009-12-10T18:15:00.004+08:00

Holidays...make me FATTER, FATTER and FATTER!!! Non-stop eating , sleeping, lepaking! Enjoy the holiday before school starts but I have to 'slim down' or else , I cannot ' climb up to form five classes.

Yep! I'm so nasty! Nastier by days!!

2010-more stress -I can see my future ... final semester! La la..yeah I'm still in 'lala land'-relaxing on the island of dream!!! At the same time , have not decided whether to do research on Design of Experiment or Operational Research. I can not make the same mistake like did for my first degree thesis ,hell no! Until now I still dont understand why I chose that 'crazy research' under Professor ' Bluto-who-wanted-to -eat-me ' supervision ! but thank God , I got good result -thanks to him too! What to do -born genius!! Luckily, this time I'm under supervison of a superbly nice, gentleman, genius professor . He taught me Calculus and Differential Equations and of course , excellent result! but now , I forgotten everything about this two subjects-well Maths without practices , hancuss!!!

....go where your heart takes you...I'm going Mc'D...now !!!

happyheartaza

2009-12-09T20:10:00.004+08:00

Dalam hidup ini, kadangkala kita tak mendapat apa yang kita inginkan dan sebaliknya. Sebagai manusia kita hanya merancang, namun segalanya ditentukan Tuhan.

Ada masanya juga kita tersilap mengatur langkah dan terjatuh .Namun dengan kekuatan dan kasihsayangNya, kita kembali berdiri dan menginsafi diri.

Ada ketikanya kita sombong dengan apa yang dimiliki, memandang tinggi bintang dilangit ,lupa bumi berpijak. Saat diuji kesakitan, baru kita tersedar hidup ini untuk bukan untuk bermegah tapi menjiwai kesukaran mereka yang menderita.

Ada kalanya, kita menyesali dan menyoal menyalah takdir yang tidak menyebelahi. Bersyukurlah , kita masih diberi ruang untuk menikmati hidup yang singkat ini.

Setiap hari ku mohon Agar Kau sentiasa Memberiku ketenangan Dalam hati kekuatan Menempuhi segala Dugaan yang mencabar ini Pasti, punya ertinya Engkau beriku harapan Menjawab segala persoalan Hadapi semua dalam tenang Dengan merasa kesyukuran Ku doa Kau selalu Mengawasi gerak-geriku Berkatilah... ku perlu rahmat darimu

Tuhan, terangkan hati dalam sanubariku Untuk menempuhi segala Hidup penuh cabaran ini Tuhan, ku berserah segalanya kepada MuAgar jiwaku tenang Dalam bimbingan mu, selalu Adakala ku merasa Hidup ini seperti kaca Jikalau tidak bersabar Hancur berderailah akhirnya Tabahkanlah hatikuMelalui semua ini , Kuatkanlah, cekalkanlah diriku

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" Why we always look at the differences between us , not the similarities?"

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happyheartaza

2009-12-08T00:07:00.003+08:00

At last, habis juga baca buku " Simple Genius"-David Baldacci. So-so...Next novel-King of Torts by ,my fav,John Grisham. Hope can finish before before Christmas!
After two weeks holiday, eat ,sleep, bowling, lepaking, waterfall,fishing bla bla...my life will be back to 'normal'. Supposed my holiday till 13 Dec but phone call from Patricia informed me that meeting with my Principal is on Tuesday 8th Dec (yeah today! ), so have to come back early. It's ok.At least , yang dirancang dapat dibuat.

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" hujung minggu nanti abang balik , cuti seminggu. Bila Aza balik KL?"
" Khamis atau Jumaat.."
"Ok. See you"
Panggilan telefon dari Amirul seminggu yang lalu. Bagai dijanji, tapi Amirul sampai lebih awal-hari Jumaat. Seperti selalu, Amirul sentiasa senyum.
"Nah, happy belated birthday!", Amirul hulurkan 'shawl' warna ungu...
" thanks" Happy, but then I realized that someone was staring at us! Gosh! His wife!!!
Ahh! Don't care! Not anymore. She will never understand us-Amirul and me.No matter how much we, even our parents and other siblings, explain to her, she still like that. I'm sick of this, actually. Well, what to do, being single ( but not available!) , terpaksa la "telan' saja fitnah, hinaan orang. I wish I can tell the whole world this,
" I AM NOT INTERESTED IN MEN-THEY ARE JUST LIKE 'MOVING PILLARS!"

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happyheartaza

2009-12-06T12:43:00.002+08:00

I'm so confused...as usual... hish! Just hoping this thing will end SOON...How nice if I can just hit the 'delete' button and all the memories , you and me - will be deleted in second. How nice if I could turn back time - dont want to know you.
I feel guilty! My fault...you remind me of Andrew..that's the reason...I admire you...but now ...hish ...

happyheartaza

2009-12-03T12:48:00.002+08:00

Any idea how to forget or hate someONE in less than THREE days???
Dont ask why...

2009-12-03T11:51:00.004+08:00

Lama nye tak update this blog. Bukan tak nak update tapi kadang-kadang BENCI dengan orang yang suka sms komen macam-macam pasal my blog...HELLO THIS IS MY BLOG!!! suka hati la nak cerita apa2 pun...

haih..what to do? I know , people always misunderstand me, misjudge , mis-whatever-you -called-it, just because they don't know me. So, please, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!

happyheartaza

UNSPOKEN..

2009-11-24T15:24:00.003+08:00

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
Even breaking my heart,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
Cause I'm sure you know who you are
What inside our hearts will remain unspoken...

May God gives you...
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile,
For every care, a promise,
And a blessing in each trial.
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every melody, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer.

Bye...

2009-11-23T22:27:00.002+08:00

I damn careless!
I went to MPH Jusco, searching for another John Grisham's book coz just finished 'The Associates'. Then, I heard announcement

" pemilik kenderaan WMS 2489 , sila alihkan kenderaan anda.Terima kasih."

Blur! , i juz ignored the first announcement

" Diulang, pemilik kenderaan WMS ........"

OMG! my car! why?? Oh no ! Not again!

I quickly ran to the parking area...looking for my car...then I saw the security guard standing next to my car...
" Cik, cermin kereta tak tutup!", he told me,politely

Again!? this is the second time in three or four months ...haih so careless. But that's not so bad. Worse, I parked my car at the roadside in my campus and I left my car key and house key on the car-boot for more than 10 hours ! I guess the students of UTM either honest or BLIND!but thanks people...Thank GOD!

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Came back from Jusco, tired. So, I thought of taking a nap but...

I got a 'day' -nightmare...scary..Leong met an accident ! I screamed and cried...I woke up..

No...

Looking for my phone..called her

"Yes ..why ?'

" are you ok?"

" Yeah ,I'm ok,why? "

still crying ," I dreamt of you , so scary"...

" of what?"

"accident!"

"choi!I'm driving now!"

huh " take care, love you"

"love you too"

...and I still crying...I love her..

I know lately I seldom talk to her because she sooo busy with her japan trip...and I dont like disturbing people when they got important things to do.

God Bless you, dear..

happyheartaza

Adam Lambert - Time For Miracles

2009-11-22T12:19:00.001+08:00

so funny...this song kept 'following' me wherever i go for the past three days...

' i give up..'

2009-11-20T20:15:00.015+08:00

4L'ers

the class that...

' dont know when they dont make noise...

'all for one and one for all'

the longest "yyaaaaaaaaammmmssseenngggggg!!!"

Esther - so shy to give speech

Steven...Mr Cool!

Daryl,Anisha, Vetton, Leon, Aaron,James and Darshan

Esther-the school captain-Peggy, YengKit, Ping Hua

Dont sit on the table!!

The girls are smiling but the two guys..???

jamie, Sue Ping and Amir...4L 'PR'

"Miss Independent"

( the rest of 4L'ers : sorry i dont have your pics...)

So...4L'09

It's a good year..but
I hope next year will be better..
in everything

3rd BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!!!

1st surprise:

6th Nov

T.G.i Fridays...

2nd s u r p r i s e:

6th Nov

Esther (F) 's house

3 rd s u r p r i s e

19th Nov

4L class Party

BIG THANK YOU

THIS BIRTHDAY CARD REALLY ...SUPERB... AWESOME!!!

so...
- enjoy your holiday

-take care

-dont forget to do revision/preparation for next year

-dont forget to complete all the holiday homework given by all your beloved teachers

-remember for Add Maths : F5 study chapter 3 first,then chap 9 then chap 1.

HAPPY HOLIDAY...

happyheartaza

2009-11-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

Ingatlah Diriku
Sejujurnya diriku tak ingin kehilanganmu Aku sangat sayang padamu Namun perpisahan ini menjemputku
Semoga kita bersama lagi
Ingatkah diriku yang pernah Ada disampingmu Ada diwaktumu Ada dihatimu
Kuingat dirimu yang pernah Hadir disampingku Temani waktuku Temani hatiku

*i heard this song,on RedFM, while driving back from Pavilion.
That was the very first time i heard it and reminded me of someone...who?
Only God knows...

happyheartaza

2009-11-20T18:50:00.002+08:00

F A M I L Y
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.
" By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree. I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

happyheartaza

2009-11-20T17:57:00.012+08:00

HOW TO LIVE LIFE.....

Be Calm... Quiet.. Tranquil....

Bloom as often as you can...

Stay close to your Family....

Explore the world around you....

Enjoy the relaxing rhythm of waves...

W A T C H T H E M O O N R I S E .....

Spread your wings and take off on your own...

Then enjoy the comfort of coming home again...

Life is short.

Please...

While you can...

Take time to enjoy

all the little pleasures that

God has provided for you....

" LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU

THE WAY YOU LIVE IT

IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD"

happyheartaza

2009-11-15T21:03:00.005+08:00

( obviously I stole this pic from someone's blog!)

To All My Students , Form Five of WMS,

SPM is just around the corner...coming to crack your head!

Nothing to worry...I believe all of you are " fully loaded" with all the facts ,formulas and strategies!! I know majority of you have problem with Sejarah (it's just a mindset) and some in Biology(?), believe in yourselves and dont give up!
( else, Hui Ee can give free last minute Sejarah tuition! )

*JiaSheng, ChouYun,Melvin,SeongLam, David and You Li and others- make sure your handwriting is legible and neat

*Dont get panic ,

*have enough sleep night before.

To Xian Wei, Cardin, Kar Yau, Mark , Vern Kit , Jon Ong , Wilson, Jang Foong - do your best.
If ALL of you get A for Maths ,then you'll hear " I do !" lol!
( Maths applies here- Implication -If p then q )

Enough time to answer ALL questions in sec B and please check your answer.

To all lovely girls - brainy beauties ( cant type all your names) -
keep the record "Scholar of the Year!"

( boys-I'm sorry for being sexist ! )

PeiJean-get better than 'Szesze'

Tze Jia-I know you're 'ponteng queen' so please check the schedule everyday..

and David too ( I know you missed the graduation!!!)

Russell- 'Time for miracle'

To all of you,

Wishing you all the best of luck.

See you , ONE AND ALL, - HONOURS' DAY 2010 !!!

( I dont mind preparing 181 certificates and plaque !!!)

happyheartaza

2009-11-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

I am missing you...dear!

Someone asked if I miss you , but , me -with my ego, pride-my answer -NO!

Only God knows...

At times - days and even week-, I ignored you, didn't talk to you

but ,forgive me ,I didn't mean it. Everytime I see you talking to others and

do things happily , I decided not to disturb-as long as you happy-

I miss the time we shared together, we make fun of each other...

Strange things, it's easy for me to tell others

how I miss them but not to you eventhough I " close " to you...

Now,

I pray that I will still have time for you

coz you're the best I ever and still have ...

luv

happyheartaza

2009-11-15T19:00:00.002+08:00

after watching this movie, my friend asked,
" is 2012 warned us to repent and be good or ... be with your loved ones?"

"both!"

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Yes, as a Muslim we believe that the Judgement Day or The Resurrection will come. It's stated in our Holy Quran. When ? Only God knows.

" Anyone who has an atom's worth of goodness will see it and anyone who has done an atom's worth of evil will also see it.
-Al-Quran 99:7

Prophet Muhammad , among other things, came to warn us of a time when truth would be known, when the thoughts and intentions of the heart would be revealed. He earnestly proclaimed as inevitable a day when accounts would be settled and when scales would be balanced.

So, be a good Muslim. I know ,time and again , I committed sin ,- not major like drinking beer, adultery etc-but then I seek forgiveness from God. Indeed, He is ar-Rahman, the Most Compassionate, and ar-Raheem, the Most Merciful.

but, man is different- will they forgive me?

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On the Resurrection Day , will I have the chance to be with my beloved family-dad, mum, brothers, sisters, nephews and nieces-?

I remember , when I was in primary, standard three or four -not sure-, My Ustazah once said,

" ... masa hari kiamat nanti ,tak ada sesiapa pun yang dapat menolong kamu , memimpin kamu , kamu berseorangan dalam lautan manusia...,not even your daddy and mummy"

And my friends and I started crying ...and so Ustazah !!!

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happyheartaza

2009-11-12T22:28:00.002+08:00

FENOMENA - NOVEMBER RAIN

"Kau genggam perasaan ku
Bila kau hampir kepadaku
Kemarau di dalam dada
Basah bagaikan disirami
Bayangmu sekilas datang
Mengangguku dalam lena
Sulitnya memikirkan perasaan
Ini datang...
Kau bawa Fenomena
Kau ciptaFenomena...
Indah amat mengasyikkan"

NOVEMBER RAIN ...

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine

So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain,
ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
................

happyheartaza

2009-11-12T21:32:00.002+08:00

HOW POOR WE ARE?

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live.

They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son,
'How was the trip?"
''It was great, Dad.''
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah,' said the son.
'So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?' asked the father
The son answered:
'I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them.'
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added,
'Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are.'

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

'Life is too short and friends are too few.'

2009-11-08T23:21:00.003+08:00

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I'll keep you and the memories close to me...

.....................

luv,

happyheartaza

2009-11-03T18:58:00.003+08:00

today...mixed feeling...

Last day , last maths class with fifth former. Actually , Pei Jean, VK ,his twin Cardin , Henry talked about it and suddenly I ..I haih...donno wat to say...no ..I wont cry...you wont see me cry ..."Big girl dont cry !"
wait, now i remember a song , like this..
" ...I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
it's not a big big thing
if you leave me...
but I do do feel
that I do do will
miss u much...miss u much..."

So from me, AZA , to all of you , my dear students,

Thanx for everything...now you're leaving , leaving behind all the memories .Good or bad, bitter or sweet ( I'll keep the good things only! bad things? -you are forgiven ) and my prayers will always be with you ..wishing you the very best..

Sorry for everything. I know whether you happy or not with me ... by the way you look at me or talk to me ... I know what you talked about me -forgive me , my dear student, I'm also human...sometimes(?) i hurt your feeling (eventhough MOST of the time, I get HURT!) . I cant please each and everyone of you ...so.. SORRY ya...

Wishing you all the 'bestest' of the best, the very best in everything you do ( the good thing only !!!)

- I know Maths is like 'second class 'subject since you are 'obsessed' with Physics, Chem ,bio and Add Maths but
Remember,
MATH RULES!!! Believe me!

happyheartaza

EXAM ..EXAM...EXAM

2009-10-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

my plan :

Morning go to library ...nak study la programming and design of experiment...must get Dean List for the 8th time...bring laptop, notes bla bla...before that must go breakfast with Dee ...else he merajuk again...got guy like this...susah...

what actually happened? :
so , reached utm around 9 , met my frenz,
potpet..potpet...
gossip...
study...

potpet...potpet...
gossip...
stu...pid...i didnt study ...why ?? because of my dear frenz...

" I lapar...jom makan...", Wan memang suka makan..
" Jom ...kat mana ?" , Ana pun kuat makan...
" mana-mana je la, I drive ", nak makan apa pun boleh buat
......KLCC???
mangkuk!! went to KLCC...so...eat ...lepak...

" Pegi Spa nak ?", yeah I suggested something which is not -in -the-plan-for-today!

" Ok.why not ?.

So we went to spa, reached home around 6pm...then went for dinner...potpet again

and now at this hour...updating my blog...

STUDY la...la...

errk..no mood to study...still got tomorrow

hik...hik...

no worries...

happyheartaza

I M SO SORRY ...!

2009-10-28T19:06:00.005+08:00

To the one I m going to lose/miss...

Me : why you never talk to ...

You : because of you..

you make me feel guilty,feel bad.
I never thought that it would be like this.
just hope that you're joking.

If it's true, I promise
I will do anything to mend 'what has broken'
- just to make you happy...
wont lose her -your friend,best friend

luv,
happyheartaza

2009-10-19T22:12:00.007+08:00

my sister :" halo...got the latest news?"
me : "what news?"
sis : "Beyonce concert postponed! ",
me :"what? postponed or cancelled??"
sis : "postponed!go online and see "

so...AFP, NSTP, the STAR ,Malay Mail...

Beyonce "I am..." World Tour Live in Malaysia has been re-scheduled
Submitted by aazman on Monday, October 19th, 2009
Monday, October 19th, 2009 19:37:00
IT looks like pop star Beyonce Knowles is not coming to Malaysia for now at least. The organisers, Marctensia Sdn. Bhd., in a statement said that the Beyonce "I am..." concert, originally scheduled on Oct 25 at Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur has been postponed to a future date.- Malay Mail.

what the h@#*!!!

I quickly bought the ticket once they announced it and now...postponed!!!What if the new date clash with my other plans??? Might be cancelled?!!!

Duhh...I hope not because of the protest by PAS! another reason to pro-UMNO/BN!!! Oppss..ahak...ha ha..

Aiyo...sob sob sob...Beyonce..she's so talented, pretty, sexy, ... If I were a boy...Halo ...Single Ladies..Sweet Dream (this song is for someone who is so sweet in my dream but in reality so mean...!!! )

ok.Relax...think positive...inhale..exhale...

$%^##*?$%*^%$@#!!!

go to sleep...sweet dream..zzzZZZZZZ ...

happyheartaza

Notting Hill - (il finale) - She Elvis Costello

2009-10-19T13:12:00.001+08:00

SHE…
She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is

She
She, oh she

2009-10-19T09:34:00.009+08:00

8 am ...Aiyo...pening kepala..tidur lama sangat...

Monday..ehh! cuti lagi??
OMG..missed my morning prayer!hmm...

three days in Genting (donno why we always go to genting on Deepavali ) ..i turned siao! something wrong with me...

my nephews and niece

First,so excited to watch Bruce Willis-my fav action-movie actor, - in 'Surrogate'... after 15 minutes ...zzzZZZZZ!!!! ...GOSH!! what the h@*&!!!.. I was sleeping till the last 5 minutes...and my sister was staring at me " you sleeping beauty!can sleep in cinema..wake up!" he he..

Second, all this while , I listened to my doctor's advice -low blood pressure !-never on the roller-coaster or whatsoever...but this time... I wanted to prove him wrong ...so I tried everything including the space shot! but i swear(?), that the first and the last...I was blackout!!!

good timing...my sis on the 'matahari-ferris wheel' and snap this while we're on the space shot..

third, the wierd STRANGE thing... a girl around 20s, out of nowhere, for no reason, gave me red roses and smiling ! Stunned and still blur I just watching her dissappeared...why give it to me? You can give to my nephew la , girl...

there you go..into the dustbin!!!-I DONT LIKE ROSES!!!

well, this is not the first time i got red roses from girls! I wonder why...maybe i 'm 'gentleman' ha..ha..

the best thing we won this big huge bear...we are the sharp-shooters !!! and the guy at the booth said this to me ," bear ni lagi tinggi dari awak !"-damn! But I lost the small bear I put in my bag ( seen in this photo)

my nephew, Harith ( he got altophobia!) and me...halo fatty!!!

another softtoys...

we got about seven small toys ( yeah my lucky number!) and wanted to play more but my sis said

" this is what we called gambling ! "

"why dont we go casino?!!"

Heck! We have to stopped!!!

no, we did not win this superbike! I llluuuvvvv it !!!

happyheartaza

Beyonce Sweet Dreams lyrics

2009-10-11T17:28:00.001+08:00

you can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare?

2009-10-07T20:32:00.007+08:00

In this life we cannot do great things.

We can only do small things with great love.
-Mother Teresa

The Book of Your Life

happyheartaza

THE WAY TO HAPPINESS

2009-10-02T18:14:00.004+08:00

True joy and happiness are valuable. What bring happiness to you? Money or love?Well, maybe but you still can find happiness. How? Let's see...

1. Take good care of yourself.

Love yourself first then you can love others.Tell yourself "I love myself" .Maybe it sounds a bit kiasu but only when you love yourself , you will do and get the best. And that will make you happy

2. Love , Honour and Help your parents.

There is no love like their love. They always try their best, with strong desire to do and to give what they believe to be the best for you. You will never find happiness if you hurt them.So, in return love , honour and help them. You'll be happy

3. Be good to others, friend and enemy

Don't do things to others that you won't like or want them to do to you.Be tolerate. If you are not happy with them , tell them in a proper manner, else, leave them alone. Remember, make friend not enemy.The best way to make yourself happy is to try to make others happy

4. Follow you heart

Listen to your heart. Think first before you make decision. Dont do things just to please others. Remember, love yourself first.

5. Be positive.

Look at this life positively. Sometimes , life goes not as what we already planned. That's ok . At least we plan. "If you fail to plan , then you plan to fail!" Whether you like it or not , take it positively with open heart and grateful for God DEFINITELY has better plan for you.

Be happy

"Happiness pulses with every beat of my heart."

happyheartaza

2009-09-18T09:00:00.002+08:00

Salam and Halo...

Today is the 28th day of Ramadhan..then either sunday or monday

HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. Most probably on Sunday...

Well..cuti raya started ..balik kampung today

tomorrow is the busiest day and we need to do a lot of preparation

for the open house.Usually our open house always on the second day

but this year maybe third or fourth day coz have to wait for my brothers and elder sister

to come back..this year is their turn to celebrate with their in-laws.Luckily my younger sister married to Briton mat saleh else...I mati lor...

so the third raya actually is our family gathering days coz all uncles and aunts, cousins will come to my house since grandma is staying with my parents...it's like kenduri besar..makan besar...

Let's celebrate raya...all Malaysian...yes..my family is really Malaysian opss not only that it's International..mixed marriage !got malay,chinese, indian, Briton ,Eurasian..

so Selamat hari raya..Maaf Zahir Batin..

Balik Kampung now! Bye see ya

happyheartaza

Seloka Hari Raya

2009-09-17T20:58:00.001+08:00

one of my fav raya songs..la la la..
so sweet this song rite?

Raya la pulak

2009-09-11T21:44:00.013+08:00

Allaahu akbar, Allaahu akbar, Allaahu akbar
الله أكبر الله أكبر الله أكبر
laa ilaaha illAllaah
لا إله إلا الله
Allaahu akbar, Allaahu akbar
الله أكبر الله أكبر
wa li-illaahil-hamd
ولله الحمد
God is the Greatest, God is the Greatest, God is the Greatest,
There is no deity but God
God is the Greatest, God is the Greatest
and to God goes all praise

Takbir marks the end of the fasting of Ramadhan, the fasting month.. and
muslims celebrate Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.. dan setiap kali dengar Takbir,
seperti ada rasa tenang and HAPPY

so what are the "must have/do" for raya

first thing..
balik kampung la.

tak "ummpp" raya di KL sebab tak ada orang kiri kanan depan belakang semua rumah tutup

semua orang pun balik kampung kalau adapun yang tak balik orang-0rang pendatang like Indon, Bangla dan orang-orang Kampung Baru! sure KLCC 'banjir' dengan orang-orang ini

jalan raya pun lengang mat rempit pun nak raya jugak masa ni kalau nak tidur atas jalan pun boleh...

kedua..

baju raya mesti ada

dan mesti baju kurung...tahun ni tak banyak beli baju ..beli lima saja...SAJA????

itu pun susah nak dapat yang sesuai

bukan tak cantik tapi 'see through maa!!"

Kebaya?? only if got body like Beyonce!!

ketiga...

makan dan makan dan makan bukan sebab sebulan puasa tapi banyak sangat rumah terbuka tak ada yang rumah yang tertutup

walaupun makanan hampir sama tapi nak jugak makan lagi mesti hormat tuan rumah juga kan..kan..lagi pun bila tetamu datang tuan rumah pun makan juga

tetamu sudah balik tuan rumah masih makan lagi...

my fav? dont know!! i eat whatever that is nice...but pineapple tart and almond london .. the nicest!

keempat...

psst..ssshh..dam..dam...dum main mercun @ bunga api...!!!

no mercun no fun but safety first...

and DONT play outside the mosque people want to pray!!!

kelima...

lagu raya

not the new songs coz they "dont give the raya mood"

old songs are much better

" ... satu hari di hari raya

aku menangis tanda gembira

aku menangis tanda ku cinta kepadaNya

...satu hari di hari raya

ku lihat wajah suci ibuku

kulihat wajah kasih ayah ku

ku gembira

mungkin inilah dia kebahagiaan.."

- lyrics of satu hari di hari raya

last...most important...

bersalam -salaman, saling bermaaf-maafan

ask for forgiveness.. we are human..we all make mistakes

so to all of you ,my friends

mohon kemaafan jika ada salah dan silap

sengaja atau tak sengaja

terkasar bahasa tersalah bicara

terkata atau terkutuk

terpukul atau terketuk

all the 'ter' ( i didnt mean it la ..)

and also to all my students

sooo sorry if i've hurt anyone of you...

( Russell and QinXian the most )

I 'ter'marah, 'ter'elbow, 'ter'shout,

'ter'silent treatment and all the 'ter'

- i didnt mean it what!??-

raya card from my 4P students...thanx !!

and also from 4L ( you cant see the card coz Esther Foo said it's invisible!)

" Salam AidilFitri

Maaf Zahir dan Batin"

happyheartaza

2009-09-09T21:09:00.006+08:00

Nice quotes ...

encourage U

to think

positively

to have
a HAPPY life

but not this...

happyheartaza

2009-08-27T16:49:00.003+08:00

Back to my hometown , I met my schoolmates , Azlin and Lina and yes, with their kids .

We talked a lot..Azlin-the kaki gossip-got a lot of story to tell..and Lina- perempuan melayu terakhir!- always smile.

" Aza , why still single?" like bomb,Azlin asked.

" ya lah..tak bosan ke ?"

"what happened to all your boyfriends?Where's Andrew?"

"Ingat lagi tak kat Nasha?"

"Hello..pause..kejap"
" You still wearing the chain..and the ring..!!!"

gosh! this woman really kapochi!

"Just forget Andrew...Kalau you tak lari dari rumah seminggu sebelum you kahwin,Aza, mesti anak you dah besar kan..",like my aunt , Azlin still want to talk about 'Aza the runaway bride'!!

Well, I'm used to all this ' single -Andrew-kahwin-lari-bla-bla..'

I know they care about me. Andrew, yes I admitted he's my 'true love' . He's my 'Mr Perfect'- smart, caring, fun, leader type. Not so romantic but like to give surprises. He gave me 'freedom' not like other guy who like to control me!.We're together for almost six years, ( but i think two or three years only- coz the first three years I was confused if Andrew and me juz friends). and decided to get married ...

Sadly..both our parents disagreed..

" kamu orang nak kawin? " Papa looked angry that time when both of us told him that we wanted to get marry

" papa tak setuju..kawan boleh tapi kawin tak boleh!papa tak benarkan Andy masuk Islam!"

" why papa?"

" papa kata tak boleh!!"

and they argued in the languange that I hardly understand-hokkien.

I still remember Andrew's face turned red...not because he angry but he cried..lost his word ..I couldnt say anything ...Andrew took my hand and in front of papa he put the ring on my finger and we left the house. Papa still angry ...I was so confused..engaged?

Nothing else we could do that time...all our dreams shattered ...we were 'separated'...

We , quietly ,curi-curi , seeing each other until I realized that we wont be together ...so difficult ..impossible!

It's not that we never try to persuade our parents but...papa ... he has his say...muktamad -NO NO NO!

But we have to 'agree' that we're not meant to each other ..the last time we met he said "Za, put this ring always..dan pakai rantai ni, please , don't forget me".

Yes , until today i still wearing both but this ring is not the one that he gave me.Why? I changed the ring coz my finger getting fatter!

Andrew? I knew he married to the girl ,pilihan papa - Lucky May!

Me?It's not that I dont try to accept other guy after that but ...they just not ANDREW and slowly 'love in me ' faded! Call me stupid ...but the truth is ..I dont have the heart to love and dont deserve to be loved and that's the reason why I ran away from my house a week before my engangement and a month before my wedding! No one would believe that I could do such thing ...such a disgrace to my family but luckily after that they understand coz they love me! So sorry to you, Nasha!I cant marry the guy that i dont and wont love.

Now , to someone out there ,if you read this-I know you will read this blog-, hope you can understand why we can only be friend nothing more than that and dont try to teach me how to love again...

No worry...I'm still happy ...live happily...

happyheartaza

2009-08-27T16:08:00.003+08:00

happyheartaza

SELAMAT BERPUASA ...HAPPY FASTING

2009-08-21T23:30:00.007+08:00

juz came back from the mosque for terawih prayer

special prayer during fasting month,
perform every night
but not compulsory
so many people in the mosque..
tomorrow,muslim will start fasting
and me...
plan to wake up early for sahur ,
that's mean have to wake up at..4.30am
well thats not a big problem to me
the problem is whether I can eat or not
for many years, since I started fasting at age 8,
I cant eat..cant ''swallow" food early in the morning,
just eat a date and hot choc drink

but for the past 6 months, I got gastric !

How la..it is not encourage to fast..
I want to fast..I dont want to miss a day
(except the days my "friends" kacau me!hate that!)
Ya Allah, give me strength, good health and iman to fast..
and also ,tomorrow , 'food fiesta' is back -yes pasar Ramadhan

my fav drink..

this is the month that I wont take fast food or go to any fast food restaurants...

I prefer buka puasa or breaking fast at home...

wahh ssooo delicious...

Variety of food at pasar Ramadhan...dont know what to buy..

so many people...even my non-muslim friend Regina likes to go there
My favourite for break fast? Definitely ikan bakar or chicken sup,
and try not to take rice...
Obviously you cant eat much with empty stomach ..
So usually I start with dates( Prophet Muhammad s.a.w said eat three dates)
or something sweet and plain warm water or warm fruit juice..NO ICE
then pray..
then eat again-not so much-
and rest and at 8 pm go to the mosque and pray till 10.00 pm...
back home eat again...
fasting,supposedly , can reduce weight
but me...I GAIN WEIGHT!!!why?? I've no idea..

SELAMAT BERPUASA

happyheartaza

BRAINTEASERS!!!!

2009-08-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

bored? relax...try this ...easy one...

brainteasers

happyheartaza

FASTING MONTH, RAMADHAN aL-MUBARAK IS COMING

2009-08-16T13:24:00.004+08:00

“O who believe, fasting is decreed for you as it was decreed for those before you;
perchance you will guard yourselves. ..."-Al-Quran,(Al-Baqarah)

Fasting is the fourth of the Five Pillars of Islam ( Rukun Islam) and involves fasting during Ramadan

The Holy Al-Quran states that fasting was prescribed for those before them (the Jews and Christians) and that by fasting a Muslim gains taqwa, which can be described as the care taken by a person to do everything God has commanded and to keep away from everything that He has forbidden.

Fasting helps prevent many sins and is a shield with which the Muslim protects him/herself from jahannam (hell).

Ramadan is the month in which the Holy Al-Quran was sent down, a guidance for the people, and clear verses of guidance and criterion.

In Islam, fasting for a month is an obligatory practice during the holy month of Ramadhan , from fajr (dawn), until the maghrib (sunset). Muslims are prohibited from eating, drinking, smoking, and engaging in sexual intercourse while fasting.

Fasting in the month of Ramadan is one of the Pillars of Islam ( Rukun Islam ), and thus one of the most important acts of Islamic worship. By fasting, whether during Ramadan or other times, a Muslim draws closer to Allah by abandoning body pleasures, such as food, drink and sex. This makes the sincerity of their faith and their devotion to Allah all the more evident.

Muslims believe that fasting is more than abstaining from food and drink. It also includes abstaining from any falsehood in speech and action, from any ignorant and indecent speech, and from arguing and fighting, and lustful thoughts. Therefore, fasting strengthens control of impulses and helps develop good behaviour.

Fasting also inculcates a sense of fraternity and solidarity, as Muslims feel and experience what their needy and hungry brothers and sisters feel. However, even the poor, needy, and hungry participate in the fast. Moreover, Ramadan is a month of giving charity and sharing meals to break the fast together.

The fasting is intended to teach Muslims patience and self-control, and to remind them of the less fortunate in the world. The fast is also seen as a debt owed by the Muslim to God. Faithful observance of the fasting is believed to atone for personal faults and misdeeds, at least in part, and to help earn a place in paradise. It is also believed to be beneficial for personal conduct, that is, to help control impulses, passions and temper.

The fast is also meant to provide time for meditation and to strengthen one's faith.

While fasting in the month of Ramadan is considered fard (compulsory or obligatory), Islam also prescribed certain days for non-obligatory, voluntary fasting, such as:

-each Monday and Thursday of a week
-the 13th, 14th, and 15th day of each lunar month
-six days in the month of Syawal (the month following Ramadan)
-the Day of Asyrura (10th of Muharram in the Hijri calendar),

Fasting is forbidden on these days:
-Hari Raya Aidil Fitri (1st Syawal) and Hari Raya Aidil Adha (Raya Haji 10th Dzulhijjah)
-Tashriq (11th, 12th, 13th Dzulhijjah)
-the Day of Arafat (9th of Dhu al-Hijjah in the Hijri ( Islamic Calendar),(Only pilgrims to Mecca)are forbidden from fasting.)

Although fasting is fard (obligatory), exceptions are made for persons in particular circumstances:

-Prepubescent children; though some parents will encourage their children fast earlier for shorter periods, so the children get used to fasting.
-Serious illness; the days lost to illness will have to be made up after recovery.
-If one is traveling but one must make up any days missed upon arriving at one's destination.
-Women who are pregnant or nursing.
-A woman during her menstrual period; although she must count the days she missed and make them up at the end of Ramadan.
-An ill person or old person who is not physically able to fast. They should donate the amount of a normal persons diet for each day missed if they are financially capable.
-A mentally-ill person

Penalty of purposefully breaking fast at Ramadan:
-For elders who will not be able to fast, a lunch meal (or an equivalent amount of money) is to be donated to the poor or needy for each day of missed fasting.

-If an adult who is sane, men or women, breaks his/her fast intentionally and without any excuse, he or she must make up the missing day(s) at the end of Ramadan.

-If an adult who is sane, men or women, having sexual intercourse during the day while fasting, expiation is achieved by freeing a slave, or fasting for 60 days successively (two months) without missing a day, or feeding sixty poor people. This penalty is not applicable to those whose having sexual intercourse at night since they do not fast at night.

happyheartaza

protest! protest! protest!

2009-08-02T20:13:00.003+08:00

Sat,1 aug 09

trafic jam, shopping malls shut down, people running like mad , women and children .. yes CHILDREN - our leaders of tomorrow -were crying, traumatized,...and bla bla..

hello ...what's happening?

huh thousands of 'idiot' marched in the city... I dont care whether they are pro-ISA or anti-ISA, to me they are all 'idiots'..nothing but idiot...

some of them are leaders..well I dont think so..they are idiots with their idiotic ideas to march and create ugly scenario in the city. This is NOT the first time ...happened many times!Since when this 'bad activity' become our 'culture' ? Hello ! this is not the culture that we want to impart and inculcate the youngsters!
Actually nothing to worry or scared of this 'ISA' if you done nothing wrong!! Respect each other, be sensitive and together WE develop this country...regard ourselves as Malaysian-not Malay, Chinese or Indian. After all, we are all God's creature..be nice to each other.. doesnt matter what religion you believed in or the skin colour .

To Muslim its stated in the Holy Quran

"..and God created men in different races, tribes, for them to know each other( respect each other)..."

Let's celebrate 1MALAYSIA..

p.s : because of this idiot rally, i missed watching 'the proposal! Missed Ryan Reynolds( Mr D ) ssooo hot . ..!!!DAMN!!!

happyheartaza

auww...so cute

2009-07-29T22:55:00.005+08:00

1. hari tu lepas balik jogging kat titiwangsa nampak anak kucing ...

cute sangat-sangat..nak ambil tak boleh...

tinggal kat aparment sure tak boleh bela kucing...

2. esoknya tibatiba terpandang poskad atas meja kawan , Anne, ada gambar anak kucing ...

so cute...so cute...sssoooo cutee

3. so i decided to google and search for kitten... found some photos

i love cat... i miss my cat at hometown, Chiko

4. I used to have 13 cats at one time...

i remember the first time we, me and my bros ( who else..my partner in crime),

decided to keep the two kittens

we found in the drain on the way back from school,

we kept them in our wardrobe

coz so scared that our parents did nt allow ,

but, mom found out coz she knew something went wrong when

all of us didnt go out and play football with cousins as usual..

so ..

" adik buat apa ? sakit ke? kenapa tak nak main?"mom asked me

dam! i closed the wardrobe, smiling at mom as she entered my room

" tak sakit..nak buat homework"

" meow..meow "

" mana bunyi anak kucing tu ?"

both of my bros looked at me..

mom knew it..opened the wardrobe

"meow..meow..meow.."

" mana dapat kucing ni?dua ekor!"

"jumpa "

..." kawan bagi"

..."beli !"

" oh mak ingatkan ambil dari zoo! " he he ...

"nak bela boleh tak?"

Mom kept quiet...

"jangan bagi kotor rumah sudah!"

mak bagi...

"apa nama kucing ni ?"

" nama kucing ni ..abang dan adik !"

yes, we named the kitten Abang and Adik! coz we found them!

so that's the begining

we got our pet...

mom, take care of my Chiko ya!

catwalking...

hu hu...comelnya... Abang n Adik?

CAN I HAVE THEM!!!!

happyheartaza

2009-07-27T20:45:00.001+08:00

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