I am missing you...dear!

Someone asked if I miss you , but , me -with my ego, pride-my answer -NO!

Only God knows...

At times - days and even week-, I ignored you, didn't talk to you

but ,forgive me ,I didn't mean it. Everytime I see you talking to others and

do things happily , I decided not to disturb-as long as you happy-

I miss the time we shared together, we make fun of each other...

Strange things, it's easy for me to tell others

how I miss them but not to you eventhough I " close " to you...

Now,

I pray that I will still have time for you

coz you're the best I ever and still have ...

luv

happyheartaza

after watching this movie, my friend asked,
" is 2012 warned us to repent and be good or ... be with your loved ones?"

"both!"

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Yes, as a Muslim we believe that the Judgement Day or The Resurrection will come. It's stated in our Holy Quran. When ? Only God knows.

" Anyone who has an atom's worth of goodness will see it and anyone who has done an atom's worth of evil will also see it.
-Al-Quran 99:7

Prophet Muhammad , among other things, came to warn us of a time when truth would be known, when the thoughts and intentions of the heart would be revealed. He earnestly proclaimed as inevitable a day when accounts would be settled and when scales would be balanced.

So, be a good Muslim. I know ,time and again , I committed sin ,- not major like drinking beer, adultery etc-but then I seek forgiveness from God. Indeed, He is ar-Rahman, the Most Compassionate, and ar-Raheem, the Most Merciful.

but, man is different- will they forgive me?

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On the Resurrection Day , will I have the chance to be with my beloved family-dad, mum, brothers, sisters, nephews and nieces-?

I remember , when I was in primary, standard three or four -not sure-, My Ustazah once said,

" ... masa hari kiamat nanti ,tak ada sesiapa pun yang dapat menolong kamu , memimpin kamu , kamu berseorangan dalam lautan manusia...,not even your daddy and mummy"

And my friends and I started crying ...and so Ustazah !!!

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happyheartaza

FENOMENA - NOVEMBER RAIN

"Kau genggam perasaan ku
Bila kau hampir kepadaku
Kemarau di dalam dada
Basah bagaikan disirami
Bayangmu sekilas datang
Mengangguku dalam lena
Sulitnya memikirkan perasaan
Ini datang...
Kau bawa Fenomena
Kau ciptaFenomena...
Indah amat mengasyikkan"

NOVEMBER RAIN ...

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine

So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain,
ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
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happyheartaza

HOW POOR WE ARE?

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live.

They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son,
'How was the trip?"
''It was great, Dad.''
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah,' said the son.
'So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?' asked the father
The son answered:
'I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them.'
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added,
'Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are.'

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

'Life is too short and friends are too few.'

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I'll keep you and the memories close to me...

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luv,

happyheartaza

today...mixed feeling...

Last day , last maths class with fifth former. Actually , Pei Jean, VK ,his twin Cardin , Henry talked about it and suddenly I ..I haih...donno wat to say...no ..I wont cry...you wont see me cry ..."Big girl dont cry !"
wait, now i remember a song , like this..
" ...I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
it's not a big big thing
if you leave me...
but I do do feel
that I do do will
miss u much...miss u much..."

So from me, AZA , to all of you , my dear students,

Thanx for everything...now you're leaving , leaving behind all the memories .Good or bad, bitter or sweet ( I'll keep the good things only! bad things? -you are forgiven ) and my prayers will always be with you ..wishing you the very best..

Sorry for everything. I know whether you happy or not with me ... by the way you look at me or talk to me ... I know what you talked about me -forgive me , my dear student, I'm also human...sometimes(?) i hurt your feeling (eventhough MOST of the time, I get HURT!) . I cant please each and everyone of you ...so.. SORRY ya...


Wishing you all the 'bestest' of the best, the very best in everything you do ( the good thing only !!!)


- I know Maths is like 'second class 'subject since you are 'obsessed' with Physics, Chem ,bio and Add Maths but
Remember,
MATH RULES!!! Believe me!


happyheartaza

EXAM ..EXAM...EXAM

my plan :

Morning go to library ...nak study la programming and design of experiment...must get Dean List for the 8th time...bring laptop, notes bla bla...before that must go breakfast with Dee ...else he merajuk again...got guy like this...susah...

what actually happened? :
so , reached utm around 9 , met my frenz,
potpet..potpet...
gossip...
study...

potpet...potpet...
gossip...
stu...pid...i didnt study ...why ?? because of my dear frenz...

" I lapar...jom makan...", Wan memang suka makan..
" Jom ...kat mana ?" , Ana pun kuat makan...
" mana-mana je la, I drive ", nak makan apa pun boleh buat
......KLCC???
mangkuk!! went to KLCC...so...eat ...lepak...

" Pegi Spa nak ?", yeah I suggested something which is not -in -the-plan-for-today!

" Ok.why not ?.

So we went to spa, reached home around 6pm...then went for dinner...potpet again

and now at this hour...updating my blog...

STUDY la...la...

errk..no mood to study...still got tomorrow

hik...hik...

no worries...

happyheartaza