8th April

while teaching in class of 4M , i received a message sent by the office staff ," brother-in-law unconcious. call younger sister". I was confused - brother in law ? Abang Amran or Paul? was about to call my younger sister, but received phone call from my bro , from his voice i knew something not good happened but still calm. "go to UH now . Emergency. Take the kids from school and come here asap". Still thinking Amran or Paul?

reached hospital, saw all my family members already there...i noticed almost everyone i saw crying. went straight to the ward...Abang Amran! he was 'sleeping'-coma! My sis, Eya, couldnt say a word. I was told by my younger sister, Haiza, about everything. Abang Amran was found unconcious in the car after sending Eya to her office. According to the doctor , he was unconcious almost two hours before the parking attendant found him. ' Expect the worst' that' s what the doctor told me.
"heart attack?"
"No. Brain stem stroke."
suddenly , my whole body weak...expect the worst? be prepared?
" why dont we take him to Pantai Hospital " , my sister suggested when she noticed that the support machine functioning manually...
" sorry ma'am, we cant do that..any hospital wont accept this case..i'm sorry" .Damn! "we'll do our best to save him. CT scan tomorrow"


9th April. 11 am.

My brother called " the doctor said better let him go, he advised to remove all the support machine. the doctor is waiting for us to remove all ". Reached UH. Eya said wait for Amran's dad from Kelantan . His flight delayed. only reached KL about 7pm! For them ,Amran is 'suffering-coma' that time but for us Abang Amran already gone . Yes he's 'gone' around 10 am! His room actually packed with families and friends. visiting him. my father, my sister talking to him. me? trying to convince my self that Abang already gone. hard to believe. we decided to removed the machine the next day . I didnt sleep the whole night. 'accompany' him. and so the rest of my family.

10th april.( sports day for my school )

7am , hospital : the doctor came and removed the machine except the oxygen.. my face wet...and my sis and the kids ... ...we're 'going' to lose our beloved brother, husband, father - everyone's friend..
Instead to Kelantan his hometown , We took him to our hometown , Gemas because we wanted him to be 'close' to us.

11.30 am , our home: the ambulance with abang inside reached home. so many people , friends and neighbours already waiting ...the heartwrenching moment ...my sis , Haiza , once a medical officer , took the hardest job in her life- removing the last support machine . her tears dropped...and so did others ...
after almost 15 seconds, she said " Abang has gone..." Al-Fatihah...We lost Abang , a week before his 43rd birthday...


He was a good brother in law. In fact he just like my own brother. I have to admit that I didnt like him at first because I didnt know him when he married to my sister. They met and got married when they still studying in US. and because of that my father didnt want me to further study in oversea! they came back with my niece, an american citizen child! but then I admitted he's such a nice brother , loving ,caring , humourous, smart - masters in maths/statistic! I lost someone who always make a cup of 'teh tarik' or Milo for me everytime we watch football match , MU lost one big fan..

Now, I have to be strong for my sister and the kids. From the outside she looks strong- as an actuarist , she always say life is risky- but inside only God knows. Even , until now I still couldnt believe he's no more with us.

Rest in Peace...Al-Fatihah..


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