Recently one of my students asked me whether i really wanted to become a teacher. I was laughing . " not really ". Then i remembered , once my teacher asked me ( I was in primary, think standard 3 or standard 4 ) ,

" kamu nak jadi apa besar nanti?" tanya Cikgu Hamidah ( not bad, i can still remember her name and her beautiful face with her long hair! )

" nak jadi polis!" yes, that was my answer! ya lah, selalu rasa excited , inspired ( kononnya! ) seeing my father in that uniform!

hahahahaaha ...the whole class laughing at me..

" hahaha...budak kecil, pendek nak jadi polis! hahahaha", i heard my friend, Sam, said that, laughing loudly and ..

Buk! my book hit his face..! padan muka...

but seriously , that time, if any teacher or anyone asked about ambition, the popular answers would be : teacher, police, nurse, doctor, engineer, and A GIRLISH answer : housewife ( how the heck that the girl can think that is an ambition!!!). No such answers like : IT expert, aerospace engineer, ..bla bla..

so, why now in teaching profession? economic recession! YES ! I graduated when our country was having bad economic recession. many graduates were jobless. So, before my final exam, during the study leave ( supposed to stay in campus and study but i balik kampung!) I decided to register with Education Department because there was a program called " Skim Khidmat Siswazah". and alhamdulillah , Thank God, right two weeks after i finished my final year exam, i was offered by the Edu dept to teach bm and science! so i went to that school ,STAR, my alma mater , and my first day was huh! not bad la...but form two kids were really NAUGHTY!!! and again THANK GOD, reached home after school, i saw a letter , an offer letter from : Methodist High School, Seremban. Subject : Mathematics , Tingkatan Enam! bye,bye STAR and MHS changed everything! and after two years in MHS I was transfered to MCKL...and now WMS!

Seriously, IF CSI : MIAMI or NY or Vegas , aired in 80s , I, AZA ALIAS, definitely now not a teacher but in CRIMINAL FORENSICs ( Horatio + Mac )! hahaha...

definitely Teoh Beng Hock Case would be 'settled' in a day( ok a week )!

but one thing , some people say that I should be a lawyer. why???!!!

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Went to Kampar for WMS conference.. eventhough no outdoor activities but it was awesome. rebranding WMS sentul and other WMS ( malacca, seremban, klang and ipoh) - above and beyond.

WMS new brand ( new badge???) Nice, like it

guess what? so excited to see my add maths and physics teacher , mr tan hiang hong aka tan haha. surprisingly, he still can recognize me ( really ahh???) -teacher's pet maaa!!! but, yes he's a good teacher .superb. but like to compare my cousin and me..yeah la..my cousin, Azurin really smart , good student, attentive

" hey, look at your azurin, so quiet, focused,...you aarr... kacau orang "

" but i finished my work...dia tu sangat bosan!!!"

still remember the time when he called all those get physics below 60 for exam and he asked them to stand outside the lab . I looked at him , waiting for him to call me .He looked at me and said...

" the rest sit down and quiet! "

my friend, Lap Yen " eh, why he didnt call you??"

how would i know??

Mr tan haha n me

then , i have to give speech -"why I teach?"! nervous saio!

comments from others :

" good speech"

" that was very inspiring "

" very touching" (????)

-and i thought i was talking crap!!!

mrs Mathew: hey, why dont want to talk about basketball??

he he he he...

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I lost my phone thursday 22/4...some mangkuk stole it...so people , please dont call/ sms my old number 0129031794. Update : 0173057398.



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8th April

while teaching in class of 4M , i received a message sent by the office staff ," brother-in-law unconcious. call younger sister". I was confused - brother in law ? Abang Amran or Paul? was about to call my younger sister, but received phone call from my bro , from his voice i knew something not good happened but still calm. "go to UH now . Emergency. Take the kids from school and come here asap". Still thinking Amran or Paul?

reached hospital, saw all my family members already there...i noticed almost everyone i saw crying. went straight to the ward...Abang Amran! he was 'sleeping'-coma! My sis, Eya, couldnt say a word. I was told by my younger sister, Haiza, about everything. Abang Amran was found unconcious in the car after sending Eya to her office. According to the doctor , he was unconcious almost two hours before the parking attendant found him. ' Expect the worst' that' s what the doctor told me.
"heart attack?"
"No. Brain stem stroke."
suddenly , my whole body weak...expect the worst? be prepared?
" why dont we take him to Pantai Hospital " , my sister suggested when she noticed that the support machine functioning manually...
" sorry ma'am, we cant do that..any hospital wont accept this case..i'm sorry" .Damn! "we'll do our best to save him. CT scan tomorrow"


9th April. 11 am.

My brother called " the doctor said better let him go, he advised to remove all the support machine. the doctor is waiting for us to remove all ". Reached UH. Eya said wait for Amran's dad from Kelantan . His flight delayed. only reached KL about 7pm! For them ,Amran is 'suffering-coma' that time but for us Abang Amran already gone . Yes he's 'gone' around 10 am! His room actually packed with families and friends. visiting him. my father, my sister talking to him. me? trying to convince my self that Abang already gone. hard to believe. we decided to removed the machine the next day . I didnt sleep the whole night. 'accompany' him. and so the rest of my family.

10th april.( sports day for my school )

7am , hospital : the doctor came and removed the machine except the oxygen.. my face wet...and my sis and the kids ... ...we're 'going' to lose our beloved brother, husband, father - everyone's friend..
Instead to Kelantan his hometown , We took him to our hometown , Gemas because we wanted him to be 'close' to us.

11.30 am , our home: the ambulance with abang inside reached home. so many people , friends and neighbours already waiting ...the heartwrenching moment ...my sis , Haiza , once a medical officer , took the hardest job in her life- removing the last support machine . her tears dropped...and so did others ...
after almost 15 seconds, she said " Abang has gone..." Al-Fatihah...We lost Abang , a week before his 43rd birthday...


He was a good brother in law. In fact he just like my own brother. I have to admit that I didnt like him at first because I didnt know him when he married to my sister. They met and got married when they still studying in US. and because of that my father didnt want me to further study in oversea! they came back with my niece, an american citizen child! but then I admitted he's such a nice brother , loving ,caring , humourous, smart - masters in maths/statistic! I lost someone who always make a cup of 'teh tarik' or Milo for me everytime we watch football match , MU lost one big fan..

Now, I have to be strong for my sister and the kids. From the outside she looks strong- as an actuarist , she always say life is risky- but inside only God knows. Even , until now I still couldnt believe he's no more with us.

Rest in Peace...Al-Fatihah..


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idk...but extra happy.

listening to one of my fav songs ... missing someone...

"Everywhere" - Michelle Branch.

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're,
you're never there
But when I sleep you're,
you're everywhere ....You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone ....I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me..... Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone.... I'm not alone.... I am not alone
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me Do you see me?


and "Time for Miracles!"

now back to work...got a lot of things to do...(really? ) YESSSS! plan to finish everything this friday. yay! lucky WMS got 'Good Friday' holiday...but my friend booked ticket to Langkawi.. duh...excited to go Langkawi? seriously NOOOO! why? just go there and shopping! dont really like shopping... i can go shopping here, KL, got KLCC, Midvalley, Pavilion...but what to do ...booked already...haih sien laa...


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whoa...one week didnt up date this blog.so dead!

why?

1. marking exam papers. i turned 'siao' marking some of the answer scripts.and their marks? almost fainted! what to do ...just maths..not addmath,or physics or chemistry, the subjects that they can die for!...they think maths not important but ,hey ,CORE subject!

2. finishing my thesis :Golden ratio and Fibonacci numbers! the ratio and number sequence that applied in human and nature. the beauty of maths that beautify the whole world! this ratio can be found in human , architecture , music, art, nature and the golden ratio point on earth is Mecca!

the golden ratio in human body..perfect body!!!

3. study +dying for complex variables test which is on saturday-tomorrow baby!

I dont like commenting/ scolding lady ( coz i'm 'gentleman' ! ) but I really got irritated by some people (ladies !) who use their long fingernail to choose/test/check whether the fruits are good or not.Hello! your long fingernails are dirty! got bacteria! and you left the 'disgusting' marks and the bacteria on the fruits for others to buy/eat? damn kiasu! why dont you do the same while choosing durians? So, mothers, sisters and 'lovers' please dont use your fingernails!

MU vs Liverpool??? the last time, MU lost to Liverpool!

I want MU and Rooney to win but definitely feel sad -not for Liverpool-but Steven Gerrard!

why la Gerrard not in MU?

but I agree with benitez- Gerrard is the best player to be named as England Captain .

ok time to study (+dying) ! Opps! I got another online test to be completed!

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CONGRATS!!

bravo! Excellent result. happy and proud of wesleyans .heart to 5M, 5L and 5W.
5M : for the FIRST TIME all students of non-science class got A in Math!
special thanx to these people for making my day ( my 'eat the chocolate' day! ) :-
Sammie, VernKit,Dino,KarYau,Mark and XianWei.
and for them:
Sek Hoong and SiauWei: I was looking for both you.. but you left already...so Congrats!
QinXian: way to go!
Russell:eventhough got 'TH', still proud of you. you worried about your Account but,hey you got A+!

to those who didnt get good result or didnt reach the target , it's not the end of the world. Will get better next time.

see you ( I wish all of you ) Honours' Day ! aiyo now i have to prepare more than 200 certs !

hope that 2010 batch will do better. JANGAN MALAS!



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