Back to my hometown , I met my schoolmates , Azlin and Lina and yes, with their kids .

We talked a lot..Azlin-the kaki gossip-got a lot of story to tell..and Lina- perempuan melayu terakhir!- always smile.

" Aza , why still single?" like bomb,Azlin asked.

" ya lah..tak bosan ke ?"

"what happened to all your boyfriends?Where's Andrew?"

"Ingat lagi tak kat Nasha?"

"Hello..pause..kejap"
" You still wearing the chain..and the ring..!!!"

gosh! this woman really kapochi!

"Just forget Andrew...Kalau you tak lari dari rumah seminggu sebelum you kahwin,Aza, mesti anak you dah besar kan..",like my aunt , Azlin still want to talk about 'Aza the runaway bride'!!

Well, I'm used to all this ' single -Andrew-kahwin-lari-bla-bla..'

I know they care about me. Andrew, yes I admitted he's my 'true love' . He's my 'Mr Perfect'- smart, caring, fun, leader type. Not so romantic but like to give surprises. He gave me 'freedom' not like other guy who like to control me!.We're together for almost six years, ( but i think two or three years only- coz the first three years I was confused if Andrew and me juz friends). and decided to get married ...

Sadly..both our parents disagreed..

" kamu orang nak kawin? " Papa looked angry that time when both of us told him that we wanted to get marry

" papa tak setuju..kawan boleh tapi kawin tak boleh!papa tak benarkan Andy masuk Islam!"

" why papa?"

" papa kata tak boleh!!"

and they argued in the languange that I hardly understand-hokkien.

I still remember Andrew's face turned red...not because he angry but he cried..lost his word ..I couldnt say anything ...Andrew took my hand and in front of papa he put the ring on my finger and we left the house. Papa still angry ...I was so confused..engaged?

Nothing else we could do that time...all our dreams shattered ...we were 'separated'...

We , quietly ,curi-curi , seeing each other until I realized that we wont be together ...so difficult ..impossible!

It's not that we never try to persuade our parents but...papa ... he has his say...muktamad -NO NO NO!

But we have to 'agree' that we're not meant to each other ..the last time we met he said "Za, put this ring always..dan pakai rantai ni, please , don't forget me".

Yes , until today i still wearing both but this ring is not the one that he gave me.Why? I changed the ring coz my finger getting fatter!

Andrew? I knew he married to the girl ,pilihan papa - Lucky May!

Me?It's not that I dont try to accept other guy after that but ...they just not ANDREW and slowly 'love in me ' faded! Call me stupid ...but the truth is ..I dont have the heart to love and dont deserve to be loved and that's the reason why I ran away from my house a week before my engangement and a month before my wedding! No one would believe that I could do such thing ...such a disgrace to my family but luckily after that they understand coz they love me! So sorry to you, Nasha!I cant marry the guy that i dont and wont love.

Now , to someone out there ,if you read this-I know you will read this blog-, hope you can understand why we can only be friend nothing more than that and dont try to teach me how to love again...

No worry...I'm still happy ...live happily...

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SELAMAT BERPUASA ...HAPPY FASTING

juz came back from the mosque for terawih prayer

special prayer during fasting month,
perform every night
but not compulsory
so many people in the mosque..
tomorrow,muslim will start fasting
and me...
plan to wake up early for sahur ,
that's mean have to wake up at..4.30am
well thats not a big problem to me
the problem is whether I can eat or not
for many years, since I started fasting at age 8,
I cant eat..cant ''swallow" food early in the morning,
just eat a date and hot choc drink

but for the past 6 months, I got gastric !

How la..it is not encourage to fast..
I want to fast..I dont want to miss a day
(except the days my "friends" kacau me!hate that!)
Ya Allah, give me strength, good health and iman to fast..
and also ,tomorrow , 'food fiesta' is back -yes pasar Ramadhan

my fav drink..

this is the month that I wont take fast food or go to any fast food restaurants...

I prefer buka puasa or breaking fast at home...

wahh ssooo delicious...

Variety of food at pasar Ramadhan...dont know what to buy..

so many people...even my non-muslim friend Regina likes to go there
My favourite for break fast? Definitely ikan bakar or chicken sup,
and try not to take rice...
Obviously you cant eat much with empty stomach ..
So usually I start with dates( Prophet Muhammad s.a.w said eat three dates)
or something sweet and plain warm water or warm fruit juice..NO ICE
then pray..
then eat again-not so much-
and rest and at 8 pm go to the mosque and pray till 10.00 pm...
back home eat again...
fasting,supposedly , can reduce weight
but me...I GAIN WEIGHT!!!why?? I've no idea..

SELAMAT BERPUASA

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FASTING MONTH, RAMADHAN aL-MUBARAK IS COMING

“O who believe, fasting is decreed for you as it was decreed for those before you;
perchance you will guard yourselves. ..."-Al-Quran,(Al-Baqarah)

Fasting is the fourth of the Five Pillars of Islam ( Rukun Islam) and involves fasting during Ramadan

The Holy Al-Quran states that fasting was prescribed for those before them (the Jews and Christians) and that by fasting a Muslim gains taqwa, which can be described as the care taken by a person to do everything God has commanded and to keep away from everything that He has forbidden.

Fasting helps prevent many sins and is a shield with which the Muslim protects him/herself from jahannam (hell).

Ramadan is the month in which the Holy Al-Quran was sent down, a guidance for the people, and clear verses of guidance and criterion.

In Islam, fasting for a month is an obligatory practice during the holy month of Ramadhan , from fajr (dawn), until the maghrib (sunset). Muslims are prohibited from eating, drinking, smoking, and engaging in sexual intercourse while fasting.

Fasting in the month of Ramadan is one of the Pillars of Islam ( Rukun Islam ), and thus one of the most important acts of Islamic worship. By fasting, whether during Ramadan or other times, a Muslim draws closer to Allah by abandoning body pleasures, such as food, drink and sex. This makes the sincerity of their faith and their devotion to Allah all the more evident.

Muslims believe that fasting is more than abstaining from food and drink. It also includes abstaining from any falsehood in speech and action, from any ignorant and indecent speech, and from arguing and fighting, and lustful thoughts. Therefore, fasting strengthens control of impulses and helps develop good behaviour.

Fasting also inculcates a sense of fraternity and solidarity, as Muslims feel and experience what their needy and hungry brothers and sisters feel. However, even the poor, needy, and hungry participate in the fast. Moreover, Ramadan is a month of giving charity and sharing meals to break the fast together.

The fasting is intended to teach Muslims patience and self-control, and to remind them of the less fortunate in the world. The fast is also seen as a debt owed by the Muslim to God. Faithful observance of the fasting is believed to atone for personal faults and misdeeds, at least in part, and to help earn a place in paradise. It is also believed to be beneficial for personal conduct, that is, to help control impulses, passions and temper.

The fast is also meant to provide time for meditation and to strengthen one's faith.

While fasting in the month of Ramadan is considered fard (compulsory or obligatory), Islam also prescribed certain days for non-obligatory, voluntary fasting, such as:

-each Monday and Thursday of a week
-the 13th, 14th, and 15th day of each lunar month
-six days in the month of Syawal (the month following Ramadan)
-the Day of Asyrura (10th of Muharram in the Hijri calendar),

Fasting is forbidden on these days:
-Hari Raya Aidil Fitri (1st Syawal) and Hari Raya Aidil Adha (Raya Haji 10th Dzulhijjah)
-Tashriq (11th, 12th, 13th Dzulhijjah)
-the Day of Arafat (9th of Dhu al-Hijjah in the Hijri ( Islamic Calendar),(Only pilgrims to Mecca)are forbidden from fasting.)

Although fasting is fard (obligatory), exceptions are made for persons in particular circumstances:

-Prepubescent children; though some parents will encourage their children fast earlier for shorter periods, so the children get used to fasting.
-Serious illness; the days lost to illness will have to be made up after recovery.
-If one is traveling but one must make up any days missed upon arriving at one's destination.
-Women who are pregnant or nursing.
-A woman during her menstrual period; although she must count the days she missed and make them up at the end of Ramadan.
-An ill person or old person who is not physically able to fast. They should donate the amount of a normal persons diet for each day missed if they are financially capable.
-A mentally-ill person

Penalty of purposefully breaking fast at Ramadan:
-For elders who will not be able to fast, a lunch meal (or an equivalent amount of money) is to be donated to the poor or needy for each day of missed fasting.

-If an adult who is sane, men or women, breaks his/her fast intentionally and without any excuse, he or she must make up the missing day(s) at the end of Ramadan.

-If an adult who is sane, men or women, having sexual intercourse during the day while fasting, expiation is achieved by freeing a slave, or fasting for 60 days successively (two months) without missing a day, or feeding sixty poor people. This penalty is not applicable to those whose having sexual intercourse at night since they do not fast at night.

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protest! protest! protest!

Sat,1 aug 09



trafic jam, shopping malls shut down, people running like mad , women and children .. yes CHILDREN - our leaders of tomorrow -were crying, traumatized,...and bla bla..

hello ...what's happening?

huh thousands of 'idiot' marched in the city... I dont care whether they are pro-ISA or anti-ISA, to me they are all 'idiots'..nothing but idiot...

some of them are leaders..well I dont think so..they are idiots with their idiotic ideas to march and create ugly scenario in the city. This is NOT the first time ...happened many times!Since when this 'bad activity' become our 'culture' ? Hello ! this is not the culture that we want to impart and inculcate the youngsters!
Actually nothing to worry or scared of this 'ISA' if you done nothing wrong!! Respect each other, be sensitive and together WE develop this country...regard ourselves as Malaysian-not Malay, Chinese or Indian. After all, we are all God's creature..be nice to each other.. doesnt matter what religion you believed in or the skin colour .

To Muslim its stated in the Holy Quran

"..and God created men in different races, tribes, for them to know each other( respect each other)..."



Let's celebrate 1MALAYSIA..

p.s : because of this idiot rally, i missed watching 'the proposal! Missed Ryan Reynolds( Mr D ) ssooo hot . ..!!!DAMN!!!

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