my masterpiece!

It's holiday!

ya! siapa tak nak cuti kan? so habis saja prepare plan for 2011-time table, teachers-subjects-classes-homerooms-bla bla bla- ...so..melepak...as usual..first thing in my mind..beaches and jungles. this is what i called 'back to nature'. well , i m naturalist!!! huahuahua...

but this time, ada bezanya..Beza? I decided to find out my 'hidden talent' or rather one of my multiple intelligences ,that is 'spatial-visual'-drawing, interpretation and creation of visual images! Instead of taking photo with my digital camera, i used art block , crayon and BUNCHO!! I DONT CARE IF PPL GONNA SAY " macam lukisan budak sekolah rendah je!.." Its ok coz my dad said,

" hmm..kalau hantar masuk pertandingan melukis menang ni..kategori sekolah rendah!".

Dang!!!...I know i cant draw..but as dad said to me " kalau dah selalu lukis nanti cantik lah ..boleh jual..yang pentingnya buat je apa Adik yang suka".

SERIOUSLY, I dont know how to draw!!!

so, yeah, all my 'MASTERPIECES' - adalah menggambarkan tempat-tempat yang dikunjungi...hutan gunung angsi, kuala pilah. pulau pangkor dan kampung kawan I , kg. senaling.

ni la..kampung kawan... ada sawah.. ada nampak macam sawah ke? Ini guna crayon..

Ini masa jungle trekking gunung angsi. beautiful plants!

Pulau Pangkor in the morning...

This is ....err..I dont know...

Ini pun...imagination.

my workplace!

missing you..'Hershey's'!!!

know what? I really ..REALLY ...impressed with my drawings! perasan betul!

but really...seriously...I never knew..i can draw..coz I TRY!!!

actually...

what i m gonna tell you, whoever la...,

-find and build up your hidden talent..search within yourself. Never say 'No', or ' i cant do it'

or 'it's IMPOSIBLE'

coz you can change that to

' I M POSSIBLE'!!

IF I TRY!!

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happyheartaza

If you have a little FAITH in me, that's enough.

If it's LOVE for me , thank you.

If there is trust, there is HOPE.

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so what's wrong of being single?

i choose to remain single and i m happy with my life

wait...i m single
but

NOT AVAILABLE!

well, i have family; parents, brothers, sisters and friends who love me

who are always there for me

i never feel alone.

yes.sometime when i went to the mall, and bumped into some people and they like
" seorang saja? mana dia. bla.bla"

so what? sometimes i need to be alone especially to bookstore.
I can spend hours in Kino or Times or MPH to find books.
so i dont want my friends to wait for me or following me and bla.bla.bla...that make me go...

ARGHHHH!!!

what is the most irritating for single ladies?

mulut orang tak boleh ditutup! fitnah merata-rata.

haiz...

pakai 'cantik' sikit, kata nak cari lelaki

bercakap dengan makhluk yang dipanggil 'LELAKI', kata nak buat suami ,

PUH-LEASE!!
hah..mulalah ..ada mulut gatal nak mengumpat

alamak, I cakap dengan budak sekolah pun kata " haaa..flirting !!!"

H.E.L.L.o!!!!

so..dulu I marah but now ..

I assume that this kind of people have no brain.

ok. SMALL MIND!

but i m lucky to have someone ( did I mention i m single but not available ?)

who really understand me. I know him for years. someone i can turn to. rely on.
the ONLY reason why I cannot get SO CLOSE ( if you can understand what i meant ) to him
is ....ARE...

he already has someone else!
no.no. I aint a 'snatcher'! NO.

plus...he's not muslim..
( Andrew is history but i m trapped in the same situation! )

It's ok. I'm happy with it. just a platonic friend.

I prefer that way but i dont know until when...its already four years!

On and Off.... Off and On.........Off? ...On.

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yes. i believe in myself. As a muslim ( i consider myself as a GOOD muslim! )
I cant say that I dont believe in marriage coz thats against
the Islamic teaching.

but based on the report recently, ( 6th Dec )

there are more than 27,000 couples divorced this year !!!
THOUSANDS!!!

wait, muslims only! means the figure DEFINITELY bigger ,

MORE,

if include the non-muslim couples!
Scary right?

so for that, I DONT believe in myself, marriage, i meant.
I might be in that statistic!
why?
i'm stubborn.ego.hard-headed.heartless.cold-blooded.
( well. I salute my friends, guy friends, who can tahan with my attitude!)

grandma: kenapa tak nak kahwin? ada orang ajak kawin, lari ..!!

me: boleh , tapi lepas dua minggu, see my face in newspaper..tajuk utama
" isteri belasah suami" !!!

.................... hahaha.................

I like this "Bitchology". Different from that kind of B**ch.
(that bad , cruel, nasty meaning !! STOP IT , PLEASE!)

sick. yes.i think i m already sick with some people.
sick because they are PRETENDERS.
they nice to me but
at the same time...

use me ...KIASUS

talking behind my back...BACKSTABBERS

not telling the truth...LIARS

TWO FACES!

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come to me with your heart opened.
i dont ask for more
just honesty.

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happyheartaza

( this poem taken from The Star, 3rd Dec 2010 )
Why English is so hard.

We’ll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,
But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,
Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.
If the plural of man is always called men,
Why shouldn’t the plural of pan be called pen?
If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,
And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn’t the plural of booth be called beeth?
Then one may be that, and three would be those,
Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
But though we say mother, we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!
Let’s face it – English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;
neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren’t invented in England.
We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly,
boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
And why is it that writers write but fingers don’t fing, grocers don’t groce and hammers don’t ham?
Doesn’t it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.
If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn’t preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.
In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.
We have noses that run and feet that smell.
We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.
And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out, and in which an alarm goes off by going on.
And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother’s not Mop?
- Anonymous

I was having my breakfast and saw this article. funny , esp the last line, but it's true. for me. because i had ( or still having this) difficulties of learning languageS! Yes, LANGUAGES! I'm suck in both Malay and English Languages. yes. I m Malay ( with Chinese blood-father's side , according to my mom! ), but that doesnt mean I m good in BM. Bahasa Melayu saya tunggang-langgang! saya boleh bercakap BM tapi 'broken BM( as well as broken English)!' -Imagine this, ok, bayangkan, bila kawan-kawan saya , guru-guru BM, membincangkan pasal BM , saya seperti 'hilang' , bukan sebab tak faham tapi , haiz, their standard! and there is a BM teacher , Cikgu Rahim, fuh! superb! hahaha..saya ambil masa untuk 'absorb' apa yang dia cakap! kadang-kadang bila masa invigilation peperiksaan BM, saya curi-curi baca karangan pelajar saya . God! I cursed myself, their karangan much, MUCH BETTER than mine. they use bombastic ( for me ) words, some which I dont even know the meaning , and worst, words that I thought dont EXIST AT ALL! lagi satu , peribahasa or simpulan bahasa, sure I kantoi!!!So , as usual, back to my staffroom, cari guru BM , Anelyza or Salina, like ,
" Salina, ada ke perkataan " TUNTAS". apa maksud? " . and, mereka , akan terangkan maksud dengan panjang lebar. Oh! Need I tell you, I failed, yes, FAILED my BM, when I was in form 4! ? sebab?
" karangan awak sudah keluar tajuk. dan tatabahasa awak..teruk! lagi satu, bahasa awak terlalu ringkas.Awak faham ke apa saya kata?" , Itulah yang cikgu BM saya kata, Cikgu Saadiah. Sarcastic! hahaha...tapi malu jugalah sebab kawan-kawan I yang bangsa Cina pun dapat markah yang lebih baik dari I. Chow Lap Yen, Chin Fan and Poh Kin... I salute you!! haha.
but one of my few malay friends , Areen, said " aza melayu yang tak macam melayu..!!!"

So what about English? sama saja. All about tenses, vocabs, gerunds, tapi I tak pernah GAGAL!! NEVER ok!


Wait! since I'm talking about my 'pathetic' languages, i must include my chinese language.
haha.I used to learn and used to speak Cantonese , as i said before, growing up, surrounded by Chinese friends.Yes, I learnt Mandarin too. No. not from my Chinese friends but from my sister who took Mandarin classes. Not good, but , yeah. boleh faham! but Cantonese better than Mandarin.That was years ago. I found my Cantonese skills " more pathetic", "deteriorating" and "dead" after I started working-joint MCKL. NO ONE SPEAKS CANTONESE!!! Now? Hardly understand Cantonese..let alone Mandarin. ( except the BAD words! I still use some to swear and curse people !!!)


So ,
Conclusion? Tuntas? 结论?

As long as people can understand what I'm saying, itu sudah sangat baik bagi saya. mingbai?


Love, Sayang, 爱

happyheartaza

...A world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,exactly who we are is just enough. there’s a place for us. ♥...

Have faith in me , Dear,

coz I do have faith in you.

I'm sorry.

happyheartaza

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.




luv,
happyheartaza