HAPPYHEARTAZA: 2009

2009 ....FAREWELL...SAYONARA...

Setahun sudah berlalu. Tinggal kenangan. I'll keep the sweet memories. Thanks to all those who brought happiness to me. My heart to those who always with me, through thick and thin.
Terima kasih juga pada yang mengkritik , mengeji, menghina- hurt but I'll take those words, maybe can help me to change and become a better person. Maaf , ( sure got la ) atas salah dan silap saya selama ini. I'm not perfect.

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AZA 'Song of the Year 2009 - HALO'

" I dont want to be Idol but Icon" -Beyonce

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Welcome ... 2010

Hopefully better than 2009...sweeter...

like strawberry chocolate

-DOUBLE HAPPINESS-

Resolution?

-to achieve yesteryears resolution-be more ladylike!!!lol...

happyheartaza

7 MOMENTS IN MY LIFE

Recap 7 ( my 'lucky' number ) things that happened in 2009 in my life.

1. The sweetest : My blogs...since 2007

2. Boring : Man U - M'sia Football Match. Supposed to be the sweetest but haih...boring! I didnt 'feel' the game. So sien.! maybe that time my mind was somewhere else..the school concert...or maybe watching the game with not-my-MU-buddy!(I blamed MU 'buddy'- VK and Liverpool -Dino!Dino, it's time to convert to MU! )

3. Wierd : I dont believe in superstitious...but since my doctor advised me to see 'bomoh' for traditional method to cure my 'illness' because he doubt about the virus infection ( yeah, after 'swallowed RM 4K !!!). I got fever only at night. So , Kak Noor took me to this bomoh and he said that a 'spirit' followed me from Pangkor . I went to pangkor , camping, a week before that! wth! Yeah, sometimes I 'see' it! Well, I Believe in GOD !

4. Funny :

Fida : Aza, tadi ada cikgu tu cakap kat saya , awak ni manja !

Me : hah....ha ha ( I couldnt stop laughing!!!)

I wonder who is this teacher..and Fida refused to tell...lol. Well , that teacher must be so lucky that she could 'see' the beauty side of me and wonder when did I 'accidently' show my 'manja-ness',since all this while I only show the ' dirty' side of me.Only those who are really close to me know how 'Manja' is me-my family!

5. Happening : My birthday - 'party in the jungle' . Back to nature!

6. Lame / Blur : Supposed to meet my friends at Pavillion, I went to KLCC...while 'waiting' , read book at kinokuniya...after one hour...

got sms : ' where r u? stil sleeping?'

' kinokuniya'

'wth u there...pavil la ...'

' not KLCC ?'

' ??? blur'

7. Embarassing : I Sent sms to the wrong person-my lecturer!

how? I was sms-ing with two different people ; my friend and my lecturer ,Dr Kay, . Different topics. sms after sms, so sms from Mimie : so, apa plan dis sunday?

and at the same time got sms from Dr Kay: so, we'll discuss this saturday .

without checking the sender ,press 'reply' : my sms : Can we go to spa or watch transformer?

and press 'send'. huh!!! Sent to Dr Kay!!!! Oh! Shitt!Hell! Damn!! Tried to cancel it but... SENT!!!

Sent to HIM!!! so ..no more sms.Called him , 'Dr, so sorry that sms not meant for you..to my friend!!' and he laughed at me..." I really thought you asking me a date at spa! " damn malu weh...worse have to see him on that saturday...and for the next four month next year..told Mimie..that woman!!!laughed like mad!

happyheartaza

My Star...so bright...

bring happiness feel so close

but

its brightness...turned me blind

me hurt...

my star... so far couldnt reach

me hurt...

my star

time will heal...

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AVATAR! Superb! How sweet if that 'Pandora' really exist. I wanna go there...

Tsahaylu...

I See You- Leona Lewis

I see you I see you Walking through a dream I see you My light in darkness breathing hope of new life Now I live through you and you through me Enchanting I pray in my heart that this dream never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your life shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice I live through your love You teach me how to see All that’s beautiful My senses touch your word I never pictured Now I give my hope to you I surrender I pray in my heart that this world never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life I offer my love, for you When my heart was never open To the world that you have shown me But my eyes could not division All the colours of love and of life ever more Evermore I see me through your eyes Flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice And live through your love And live through your lifeI see you

I see you

**nice song**

happyheartaza

Will have gathering at my sis house tomorrow. She will cook and I hope she follows Aunt Pat's recipe...I wont cook! as usual, from me , strawberry, marshmallow and chocolate!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

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CONGRATS TO MY NEPHEWS FOR GETTING STRAIGHT As IN PMR

RIZAL- 9As ( your Arabic damn keng la...dont kutuk me in arabic! hey..dont kacau la..can read this post later ..shuh..)

AIMAN -8As ( MRSM student muz get straight As else Rizal kutuk you maa )

HALIM -7As 1B ( got B for BM ? dont be sad..kami semua tahu BM kamu sangat teruk...silalah berusaha dengan lebih kuat...sila lah berhenti membaca manga kerana manga tak baik untuk BM- eh! I think your BM is not stand for Bahasa Melayu but Bahasa Manga!!! ha ha...)

Ouch!! you hit me...

They always bully me...but they gonna get 'something' from their 'brutal 'aunt !!!

and

Congrats also to F3 '09 Wesleyan ...

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Went to The Gardens yesterday from school for some gathering with my ex-students. Supposed meet at 1.30 pm but reached there almost 2pm. Then got problem to find parking. aiyo . Someone told me , better take lrt to MV haih..should listen to him...but...they were late also! so ok lah. So had 'lunch' with Jing Hang, Yean Xin and Alex Hooi. Boon Guan didnt come..betrayed us!Lot of stories...last we met Dec last year...like annual gathering ? But YeanXin had to leave early...so,left three of us pok pek till 6 pm...exchange stories by all ex-Interactors!!! yeah INTERACT...till we meet again...msn only la ...UK people !

happyheartaza

9 days to 2010. hope 2010 better than 2009. too many not-happy-things happened this year.

1. January : I was hospitalized, Pantai Hospital , for four days-virus infection! actually I was sick for one month! Not so many people knew about this. only my family, my close friends and my student-Qin Xian (he called me to make sure I really in hospital-didnt believe me !) - even Russell said I was ponteng-ing -nice word from 'godson'( this 'godson' reminds me of Vilyn) !!!

2. March : My uncle passed away because of cancer. He was not really my uncle-Amirul's dad. When his condition deteriorating, my mum told me that he wanted to see me..idk why...just promised to see him during holiday...I was very grateful that I have that one week to spend time, taking care of him.

3. June : My brother met an accident. Thank God. Nothing serious.Just minor. Yeah, lucky it's Rexton, what if he drove ...

Ok.stop counting and remembering all the sad thing...no wait...

I lost my watch..in school...I know it's just BONIA not Tag Heuer or Omega..but its sentimental value...but in school!!!sure got dishonest people in WMS!!!

and lost my RING-my 'engagement ring'!!! Still looking for it but someone said " seize the present day not the past-just history". I know it's history but hey, still can get money by pawning the ring!!! lol.

and I LOST SOMEONE LATELY...NOT SURE! ( hated me aredy? It's ok..you're still in my prayer )

2010,

be good to me...

but one thing for sure ...

The Worst and the Sweetest things of 2009? resolution? next post...

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The Princess and The Frog...nice movie.A 5-star movie !

happyheartaza

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I regret for not telling you the truth

... and you never ask ...

Goodbye and Farewell, dear...

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happyheartaza

We Are The Champion!!

Congrats to our football team!

Pasukan bolasepak Malaysia berjaya mendapat pingat emas dalam perlawanan akhir bolasepak mengalahkan Vietnam 1 - 0 di SEA Games 2009.

Macam tak percaya je...ye la selalunya semua orang mengkritik pasukan bola sepak dan kualiti permainan mereka. Tapi mereka sudah buktikan dan menghantar mesej menutup mulut pengkritik-pengkritik ini ( termasuklah si Aza nie!) . Syabas!

Menonton perlawanan di kedai mamak ,memang best gila. Ye la, selalunya kat kedai mamak ni ramai-ramai tengok Manchester United main atau pun Liverpool ( tak sokong tapi nak tengok my lovely Steven Gerrard je...) tak de siapa yang peduli pun tengok Malaysia main.Bukan tak nak sokong tapi kalau tengok pun selalunya mengutuk je. memang sakit hati tengok. Tapi suasana kat mamak masa final Malaysia-Vietnam tadi sangat berbeza. Barulah nampak sokongan tak berbelah bagi..tak ada yang kutuk.Kiranya 200% sokong! Itulah sebenarnya perasaan sebenar rakyat Malaysia...Semua bersorak bila Malaysia gol-termasuklah mamat Bangla teh tarik kat kedai mamak tu- huh ! kalau tak sokong I panggil polis tangkap mamat Bangla ni -...Suasana yang sama waktu Malaysia menang badminton Thomas Cup 1992 selepas 25 tahun. Ada sorang mamat tu , yang paling kuat suaranya, jerit "Malaysia Boleh!!!" ...semua pun ikut jerit...macam kat Stadium Bukit Jalil pulak...tapi ada jugak yang I nampak menangis - lelaki pun menangis? well , real man do cry!..terlalu happy kot... ye lah selepas 20 tahun, last menang 1989 baru tahun ni dapat...Tapi suasana yang bising tadi bertukar senyap seketika sebelum semua orang kat kedai ni sama-sama berdiri dan nyanyi lagu Negaraku ...I rasa saaangggattt bangggaaa...nak menangis pun ada ...happy maa..HAPPYAZA maa..

Apapun , pada ketika pemimpin politik kat Malaysia ni sibuk dengan isu 'racism'( get lost with those racist!!! U DONT BELONG HERE !!!) , rakyatnya tak kira bangsa , 1Malaysia, bersatu dalam 'bolasepak' di kedai mamak!

Yang pastinya, someone owes me MU new jersey...no..Malaysian jersey -blue , number 7! next time dont bet with me!!! lol

the identical twin -aidil zafuan (no 7!-captain ) and zaquan adha
aidil is married to an actress , 12 years his senior!

adha? dating an actress , 5 years older than him

what's wrong with both of you? Love is blind...whatever la

as long as ...HAPPY

which one is aidil ? adha?

happyheartaza

TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS ,

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431

HAPPY NEW YEAR 1431

happyheartaza

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Morning :

9.00 :In school to do the timetable...still got problem with it. Generated the timetable for more than 10 times , still got teachers who will have more than three periods in a row. Worse , some teachers got seven periods in a day! I'm EVIL if I give them this kind of timetable. Penat la...In this case, "U Think I Care" doesnt apply!!They are my friends!! But if cant, then I have to, so sorry lor!

10.30 : Had meeting with the Principal and Form Supervisors. Discussed a lot. Made some changes.

Met Mr Peter .Opps.Datuk A R Peter ! Congratulated him for the title "Datuk" conferred by Sultan Selangor.

" Ala..now I can not call you bapak " .Yes , my friends and me call him "bapak" !
"No..no I prefer you call me that way ".
He is the man that builds up confidence in me-something that I'm still lacking!
He knew I got stage fright , no confidence, but he chose me to be the MC for school dinner to welcome our new chairman, a minister! and just me as MC! ( Evil mind gave idea to get mc that night!!)

"Sir, you know my english, SUCK!", not sure whether he heard the word 'SUCK'! Even my BM also tunggang langgang! I've problem to pronounce the words that have 'r' and 'l'. My teachers said I pelat! ( but my mandarin teacher said my mandarin is good!!!) What to do..I speak math !

"No, you can do it. Do worry.Go up there, speak, you can handle this function"

That night, took the challenge, konon berani sangatla, took the mic , looked at him , he smiled,nodded...bla bla ...phew...no mistake!!! Flawless!!!

" Well done !You did it !!!I know you can do it " But he didnt know ,behind the rostrum my leg was shaking, sweating!

Yeah, bapak taught me a lot.and so 'emak'. and still learning! They are my teachers-masters actually!

But at the same time , feel sad coz my another two 'teachers' are leaving- Mr Moore and Mr Ganes ...haih...

Back from school, went to KLCC, wanted to buy something for Christmas but couldnt find . Hard to find Xmas gift! And too many people...after almost two hours -one hour in Kinokuniya, my lepak place actually-, ...well i'm not the type who lurvvv to shop...so balik lor...still got few days to get that ' something'...

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happyheartaza

Holidays...make me FATTER, FATTER and FATTER!!! Non-stop eating , sleeping, lepaking! Enjoy the holiday before school starts but I have to 'slim down' or else , I cannot ' climb up to form five classes.

Yep! I'm so nasty! Nastier by days!!

2010-more stress -I can see my future ... final semester! La la..yeah I'm still in 'lala land'-relaxing on the island of dream!!! At the same time , have not decided whether to do research on Design of Experiment or Operational Research. I can not make the same mistake like did for my first degree thesis ,hell no! Until now I still dont understand why I chose that 'crazy research' under Professor ' Bluto-who-wanted-to -eat-me ' supervision ! but thank God , I got good result -thanks to him too! What to do -born genius!! Luckily, this time I'm under supervison of a superbly nice, gentleman, genius professor . He taught me Calculus and Differential Equations and of course , excellent result! but now , I forgotten everything about this two subjects-well Maths without practices , hancuss!!!

....go where your heart takes you...I'm going Mc'D...now !!!

happyheartaza

Dalam hidup ini, kadangkala kita tak mendapat apa yang kita inginkan dan sebaliknya. Sebagai manusia kita hanya merancang, namun segalanya ditentukan Tuhan.

Ada masanya juga kita tersilap mengatur langkah dan terjatuh .Namun dengan kekuatan dan kasihsayangNya, kita kembali berdiri dan menginsafi diri.

Ada ketikanya kita sombong dengan apa yang dimiliki, memandang tinggi bintang dilangit ,lupa bumi berpijak. Saat diuji kesakitan, baru kita tersedar hidup ini untuk bukan untuk bermegah tapi menjiwai kesukaran mereka yang menderita.

Ada kalanya, kita menyesali dan menyoal menyalah takdir yang tidak menyebelahi. Bersyukurlah , kita masih diberi ruang untuk menikmati hidup yang singkat ini.

Setiap hari ku mohon Agar Kau sentiasa Memberiku ketenangan Dalam hati kekuatan Menempuhi segala Dugaan yang mencabar ini Pasti, punya ertinya Engkau beriku harapan Menjawab segala persoalan Hadapi semua dalam tenang Dengan merasa kesyukuran Ku doa Kau selalu Mengawasi gerak-geriku Berkatilah... ku perlu rahmat darimu

Tuhan, terangkan hati dalam sanubariku Untuk menempuhi segala Hidup penuh cabaran ini Tuhan, ku berserah segalanya kepada MuAgar jiwaku tenang Dalam bimbingan mu, selalu Adakala ku merasa Hidup ini seperti kaca Jikalau tidak bersabar Hancur berderailah akhirnya Tabahkanlah hatikuMelalui semua ini , Kuatkanlah, cekalkanlah diriku

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" Why we always look at the differences between us , not the similarities?"

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happyheartaza

At last, habis juga baca buku " Simple Genius"-David Baldacci. So-so...Next novel-King of Torts by ,my fav,John Grisham. Hope can finish before before Christmas!
After two weeks holiday, eat ,sleep, bowling, lepaking, waterfall,fishing bla bla...my life will be back to 'normal'. Supposed my holiday till 13 Dec but phone call from Patricia informed me that meeting with my Principal is on Tuesday 8th Dec (yeah today! ), so have to come back early. It's ok.At least , yang dirancang dapat dibuat.

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" hujung minggu nanti abang balik , cuti seminggu. Bila Aza balik KL?"
" Khamis atau Jumaat.."
"Ok. See you"
Panggilan telefon dari Amirul seminggu yang lalu. Bagai dijanji, tapi Amirul sampai lebih awal-hari Jumaat. Seperti selalu, Amirul sentiasa senyum.
"Nah, happy belated birthday!", Amirul hulurkan 'shawl' warna ungu...
" thanks" Happy, but then I realized that someone was staring at us! Gosh! His wife!!!
Ahh! Don't care! Not anymore. She will never understand us-Amirul and me.No matter how much we, even our parents and other siblings, explain to her, she still like that. I'm sick of this, actually. Well, what to do, being single ( but not available!) , terpaksa la "telan' saja fitnah, hinaan orang. I wish I can tell the whole world this,
" I AM NOT INTERESTED IN MEN-THEY ARE JUST LIKE 'MOVING PILLARS!"

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happyheartaza

I'm so confused...as usual... hish! Just hoping this thing will end SOON...How nice if I can just hit the 'delete' button and all the memories , you and me - will be deleted in second. How nice if I could turn back time - dont want to know you.
I feel guilty! My fault...you remind me of Andrew..that's the reason...I admire you...but now ...hish ...

happyheartaza

Any idea how to forget or hate someONE in less than THREE days???
Dont ask why...

Lama nye tak update this blog. Bukan tak nak update tapi kadang-kadang BENCI dengan orang yang suka sms komen macam-macam pasal my blog...HELLO THIS IS MY BLOG!!! suka hati la nak cerita apa2 pun...

haih..what to do? I know , people always misunderstand me, misjudge , mis-whatever-you -called-it, just because they don't know me. So, please, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!

happyheartaza

UNSPOKEN..

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
Even breaking my heart,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
Cause I'm sure you know who you are
What inside our hearts will remain unspoken...

May God gives you...
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile,
For every care, a promise,
And a blessing in each trial.
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every melody, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer.

Bye...

I damn careless!
I went to MPH Jusco, searching for another John Grisham's book coz just finished 'The Associates'. Then, I heard announcement

" pemilik kenderaan WMS 2489 , sila alihkan kenderaan anda.Terima kasih."

Blur! , i juz ignored the first announcement

" Diulang, pemilik kenderaan WMS ........"

OMG! my car! why?? Oh no ! Not again!

I quickly ran to the parking area...looking for my car...then I saw the security guard standing next to my car...
" Cik, cermin kereta tak tutup!", he told me,politely

Again!? this is the second time in three or four months ...haih so careless. But that's not so bad. Worse, I parked my car at the roadside in my campus and I left my car key and house key on the car-boot for more than 10 hours ! I guess the students of UTM either honest or BLIND!but thanks people...Thank GOD!

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Came back from Jusco, tired. So, I thought of taking a nap but...

I got a 'day' -nightmare...scary..Leong met an accident ! I screamed and cried...I woke up..

No...

Looking for my phone..called her

"Yes ..why ?'

" are you ok?"

" Yeah ,I'm ok,why? "

still crying ," I dreamt of you , so scary"...

" of what?"

"accident!"

"choi!I'm driving now!"

huh " take care, love you"

"love you too"

...and I still crying...I love her..

I know lately I seldom talk to her because she sooo busy with her japan trip...and I dont like disturbing people when they got important things to do.

God Bless you, dear..

happyheartaza

Adam Lambert - Time For Miracles

so funny...this song kept 'following' me wherever i go for the past three days...

' i give up..'

4L'ers

the class that...

' dont know when they dont make noise...

'all for one and one for all'

the longest "yyaaaaaaaaammmmssseenngggggg!!!"

Esther - so shy to give speech

Steven...Mr Cool!

Daryl,Anisha, Vetton, Leon, Aaron,James and Darshan

Esther-the school captain-Peggy, YengKit, Ping Hua

Dont sit on the table!!

The girls are smiling but the two guys..???

jamie, Sue Ping and Amir...4L 'PR'

"Miss Independent"

( the rest of 4L'ers : sorry i dont have your pics...)

So...4L'09

It's a good year..but
I hope next year will be better..
in everything

3rd BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!!!

1st surprise:

6th Nov

T.G.i Fridays...

2nd s u r p r i s e:

6th Nov

Esther (F) 's house

3 rd s u r p r i s e

19th Nov

4L class Party

BIG THANK YOU

THIS BIRTHDAY CARD REALLY ...SUPERB... AWESOME!!!

so...
- enjoy your holiday

-take care

-dont forget to do revision/preparation for next year

-dont forget to complete all the holiday homework given by all your beloved teachers

-remember for Add Maths : F5 study chapter 3 first,then chap 9 then chap 1.

HAPPY HOLIDAY...

happyheartaza

Ingatlah Diriku
Sejujurnya diriku tak ingin kehilanganmu Aku sangat sayang padamu Namun perpisahan ini menjemputku
Semoga kita bersama lagi
Ingatkah diriku yang pernah Ada disampingmu Ada diwaktumu Ada dihatimu
Kuingat dirimu yang pernah Hadir disampingku Temani waktuku Temani hatiku

*i heard this song,on RedFM, while driving back from Pavilion.
That was the very first time i heard it and reminded me of someone...who?
Only God knows...

happyheartaza

F A M I L Y
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.
" By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree. I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

happyheartaza